Flashback Friday : Volume 8 & 9

Hello my lovelies. As promised today I have a two-fer.

Firstly, we have a little known British band by the name of The Stone Roses. I really like this band and this song by far is my fav song of theirs. It's an oldie but goody, and it's so FUNKY!


The Stone Roses : "Fools Gold"




Secondly, we have a band by the name of The Breeders. Formed by Kim Deal of The Pixies and Tanya Donelly of Throwing Muses. They came out with the album "Last Splash" in 1993, which featured the song that I am posting today, "Cannonball". I believe the band is still around, but if I remember correctly, Tanya Donelly is no longer with the band, but Kim recruited her twin sister, Kelley to the band. I could be wrong....I'm going off memory here.

Happy Friday all!!!!

Happy Halloweeny - Jason & Michael square off

Michael Myers says:
when you wanna go to lunch?
Jason Voorhees says:
in a million years
Jason Voorhees says:
after i chop up this body...hang on
Michael Myers says:
well jason, you wont live that long
Jason Voorhees says:
apparently i have through 36 sequels
Jason Voorhees says:
so suck it
Michael Myers says:
suck m left biotch
Michael Myers says:
my left nut
Michael Myers says:
dammit
Jason Voorhees says:
in fact didn't i win in our stand off?
Michael Myers says:
my bloody left nut
Jason Voorhees says:
oh wait...did we have a stand off or was that just freddy vs. jason?
Michael Myers says:
no you died biotch!!!!
Michael Myers says:
freddy and jason
Jason Voorhees says:
whatever. yo mama
Michael Myers says:
no we didnt
Michael Myers says:
but if we did
Michael Myers says:
your ass would be toast
Michael Myers says:
yo mama ate my left bloody nut
Michael Myers says:
http://www.angryalien.com/0605/freddyjasonbuns.asp

Michael Myers just sent you a nudge.

Michael Myers says:
wake up biotch head

You have just sent a nudge.

Michael Myers says:
where yo wanna go eat?
Michael Myers says:
daja has 5 bucks
Michael Myers says:
so like mickey d's or taco hell or taco bueno or chicfila
Michael Myers says:
whatchoo want

Yah, I got nuthin....

ok so i'm now officially invite only for a while. had to get rid of my "stalker". ugh.

anyhooooooooooo.....

don't have much to report really. first of all, i totally suck as i skipped my Flashback Friday post this past week. SORRY GUYS - i'll make it up with a double this friday ;-)

weekend was good - my soccer team won first place in our division this sunday - so that was very exciting! go chubby burritos! (yes, that's our real name - you can laugh, cause we do)

the ladybug is terribly sick, so i took off work yesterday to stay home with her. she has a stomach bug and on top of that a cold as well. so she is miserable. and the bad news is that i'm over here feeling some symptoms coming on....zicam to the rescue - i hope it helps, but i'm not too optimistic, unless it was just a regular cold coming on. bugger.

so halloween is tomorrow and i couldn't be less excited. that sucks because usually halloween is my favorite holiday of the year. i'm just not at all into it this year. hopefully next year will be a different story. the only thing i actually have been doing is watching quite a few horror movies recently.

so there is the update on my boring life at the moment.

oh oh oh....i forgot. saturday was interesting. jos and i went to a "meet n' greet" for maroon 5. she won the tickets. it was a huge cluster fuck to say the least.....and dealing with those little teeny boppers - oh my gosh (i'm so scared that i know i will have my very own on my hands in a few years - joy). we got to check out the sound check and then meet the band briefly. we then decided to walk across the street and have a few drinks before the show at this hole in the wall bar, which we met our new favorite bartender. needless to say, we drank a few too many stella artois and didn't make it to the show. haha. ah well. it's not really my thing now-a-days anyway...i just went cuz jos asked me to and we ended up having our own little good time.

have a happy week all!

Can I Stay?

Ray LaMontagne - Can I Stay

Love & Happiness

I've just recently discovered this guy - Marc Broussard. Holy freakin moly does this guy groove. His voice is as soulful as Otis Redding. Not too bad for a white boy.

Enjoy...



p.s....i jumped the gun on the invitation only thing and several people reprimanded me for that, so i am public again for another few days...so hurry up if you want me to add you.

Privacy

hey all....

due to the recent changes/events in my life, i've decided to be a little more private for a while. i don't know for how long, but it's just the mood i'm in for now. i've become closed off to certain people in my life as well and focused solely on my closest friends for their love and support. nothing personal, but i need to be selfish and focus on myself right now....i've spread myself too thin for so many years handling other people's problems and being overly kind-hearted, that i just don't have the strength to do so at the moment. not saying that part of me has completely gone away - it never will.....or that i won't return back to the way i was...but for now, this is what i need. please understand that.

with that said, i'm going to make my blog by invitation only for a while. i won't make it that way for about another week, so you will have time to email me with your email address so i can invite you to view it as opposed to the general public being able to see everything i write about.

email me at lala_226@hotmail.com and i'll add you on the readers list.

lots of love to you all ~ namaste ~

Flashback Friday : Volume 7

don't have much time - i'm leaving work early today (WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO!), but i had to stop by and post the flashback for today.

taking you back 14 years to 1993, arguably the greatest band on earth - U2. (let me preface that statement with alive and still together....)

i'm not a die-hard U2 fan, but i definitely own a few albums and still think they are freakin awesome.

zooropa was the album, although it did not get much recognition, it wasn't as mainstream as some of the others. my favorite U2 song of all time was on this album though. track #5 : Stay (Faraway, So Close!) (ps. there was also a collaboration on this album - "the wanderer" with U2 & Johnny Cash - great stuff)

enjoy.

i love my job

me: "errrrrr....do we lend on 142 acres?"
VP of operations: laughs....
me: "that's what i thought. it's an estate of some dead guy - house built in 1925...looks haunted...check it out. take a look - in rural michigan and appraiser states 'property contains several older outbuildings in varying conditions' "
VP of operations: "yah...that's where they cut up people and their bodies are never found. um....NO"

Time for some soul cleansing

a soothing visual journey....

The way my day week month is going....

Butterfly says: vrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrt
Butterfly says: do you have a gun?
Natorchen says: yes
Butterfly says: shoot me right between the eyeballs please
Natorchen says: how 'bout a kiss instead
Butterfly says: and don't miss or i will KICK your ass for making me a vegetable
Natorchen says: that rough of a day?
Butterfly says: i'm just incredibly sick of dumb people
Natorchen says: you and me both
Butterfly says: let's kill them all and just cohabitate with cool people that aren't dumb
Butterfly says: k?
Butterfly says: k
Natorchen says: word
Natorchen says: we would eventually be overrun though
Butterfly says: yah you are right....it would be like lord of the flies and we would be eaten
Natorchen says: stupid people breed... a lot!
Butterfly says: oh well...nice thought while it lasted
Natorchen says: hehehe

You've got to come original

i've noticed over the years that my music tastes have mellowed out. i think i finally found my niche in the jam bandish / folky type genre. i sway from it some, but if i was to say what was my absolute favorite type of music, that would be it.

in my "new wave" days, i would listen to harder music. i never got into metal or hard rock...but along the lines of ministry, skinny puppy, etc.

i can't handle that much anymore....so like i said, i've mellowed.

but i do have those days (like this morning) that i wake up and i just want to crank the shit out of some kick ass music on my way to work and say fuck the rest of the world. (after i dropped the ladybug off for school of course - i'm not that torturous ;-) )

the band i usually throw in for those moments is 311. (or beastie boys depending on my mood)

today was my 311 morning and i now feel refreshed. apparently i needed that and felt some built up aggression over the past few days expell from my body in doing so.

so i have decided to spread some of my good fortune this morning and leave you with two 311 vids. enjoy :)

"come original"



and a little on the mellower side, but my absolute favorite tune by 311 : "amber"

yowch

soccer has been kicking my ass lately. i didn't know it was possible, but apparently i have become even MORE aggressive than i was before. which wasn't my intention as i have to remember that i don't have a teenage body anymore. i have quite a few marks of war from my soccer game this weekend, but here's the big one. this is what happens when someone slams down on your toe with their cleat....

***CURSING***

Harry Potter's buying a house!

it truly is the little things in life.....

I don't wanna grow up...I'm a Toys R Us kid....

sweet mama, dandelion seeds, tagged me with this:

“5 things you want to be when you grow up. Big dreams that seem like folly, but in your heart of hearts are very real and dear to you. Things that maybe you have forgotten about in the ebb and flow and toil of the everyday, but that never really leave your soul. What you would do if anything at all was possible. Spend some time day dreaming…and then post them on your blog, passing the idea along to 5 others..because sometimes we need to pause and remember our dreams, hey? Maybe just saying it out loud will help you discover even little ways you can make them happen. You can write about that, too.”

1. my dream in high school was to become a marine mammologist. i dreamt of working with sea life (mammals) out in the wild. something about them has always appealed to me...and still does. but alas, i did not have the patience to go to school for it....so i took the easy road out.
2. a small store owner in a beautiful, small, natural town...possibly somewhere in colorado or new mexico. i would sell things like eccentric gifts, incense, lotions, handmade soaps, handmade jewelry, etc. i think i would adore this.
3. world traveler. in some sort of field where i had the chance to travel the world and interact with people of different nationalities and different cultures. and not from an outside perspective either....i want to be right in the middle with them.
4. work for a non-profit organization ie...greenpeace or peta and experience the global issues surrounding these and be able to be directly involved in making a change.
5. professional festival goer. i would LOVE to spend my days attending outdoor music festivals around the country or around the world for that matter.

i now tag:

• hip momma
• abdula ikibarra
• swirly girl
• dana herbert

"WHAT 'CHO DREAM????"

If you love someone....set them free

i want to clarify to everyone that what is going on with me is not "bad"...just trying. i'm having to let go of someone that i love very much for a while for outside circumstances, but in the end, it will all work out. i know this. i trust this. it's just trying for now. it's a good time to write for myself, which i am doing and it's very theraputic. i used to keep a written journal, but i've figured out that over the years, handwriting things has become very hard on my hands. i'm so used to typing constantly and quickly that to handwrite for long periods of time makes me feel like i have arthritis.

technology blows sometimes, doesn't it?

so i'm actively looking for a p/t or seasonal job. i applied 3 places last night in hopes that atleast one of them calls me. i have to do something for a few months. i've also offered up a roommate situation with a close friend of mine, but we will see what happens with that. money is the devil. i've always said that and i will say it until the day i die.

i talked to a close friend of mine yesterday who offered me comfort and much hope, so i could actually breathe again....breathing has been a little difficult lately.

i have many ideas running around inside of me noggin. i have about $150 worth of painting supplies from the christmas before last that are sitting in a closet in my house untouched. do i want to take them out and start experimenting? i want to take some yoga classes also again...but when can i fit them in? (not to mention they cost money)...i want to learn beading (which i intend to do with ms. dandelion seed very soon)....i haven't been practicing guitar like i should be....want to get back into that. gah.

it's overwhelming all of the projects and all the "want to do"s.

one at a time...one at a time.

Flashback Friday : Volume 6

today we're going back to 1987 with Crowded House - "Something So Strong"

Stay or Leave

Correction for Hiatus

(what i should have said is that i won't be posting anything TOO in depth....) i have also created another private blog that i am writing in for my eyes only just to get me through this trying time, but i'm trying to stay positive....i must.

thank you guys for your kind words...you guys rock.

"You Make Me Smile" Award

ok so i had to post because i absolutely needed this today and i love her dearly for including me in her award....


thank you my little dandelion seed :) you make me smile just as much!!!!!!!!!

p.s.

i think i'm ready for a new layout....any suggestions would be awesome....i want a more bright, free spirited, flowing hippie-style layout. :)

Hiatus

hello my faithful reader(s). sorry about the absence of postings lately....as of yesterday, my life has taken an unexpected turn and i'm not much feeling like being public about it, so i probably won't be posting for a while. i'm still here and will still be catching up on reading my favorite blogs.

stay tuned.

~~~~~namaste~~~~~

Flashback Friday : Volume 5

sorry about the "drive by" posting guys....busy bee today....

Today, I've chosen "Living In Oblivion" by Anything Box....

enjoy...

The Feast of The Weatherman

weekend was good...not long enough, but when is it ever? got to spend some quality time with Horizon, which was MUCH needed.

i went and saw "The Feast of Love" with my mom and my sis on saturday. what a spectacular film...beautifully written story and powerful message. the only thing i thought this movie could have done without was the sex scenes. now don't get me wrong, i am no prude and enjoy sex scenes as much as the next guy (girl)....but this was not the movie for that. i think it took away from the plot and just didn't belong. but overall, i was quite impressed with this one. (still not COMPLETELY sure how the title ties into the film...)

afterwards, we got back to my folks house and watched "The Weatherman". i would call myself a fan of nick cage, but i'm a HUGE fan of michael caine. i'm still a little unsure of how i felt about this movie. i laughed my ass off (at inopportune times i'm sure) and felt depressed, then on the other hand, questioning "wtf is going on here?" it was definitely interesting. i must say. not sure if i liked it or not, but i enjoyed watching it that's for sure. i tried to find a clip on youtube where he's describing how he started getting hit by random food objects...how in the beginning he thought it was an accident, then as it kept happening he realized it wasn't an accident and somehow had themes of fast food items. i almost peed my pants laughing so hard at this part in the movie.

that's all i got. it's a new month and things have slowed down just a tad for the moment, so maybe i'll be able to catch up on reading some blogs and posting a little more.

Flashback Friday : Volume 4

i have a two-fer for you lovelies today.

i've always loved The Psychedelic Furs. richard butler is definitely one funny lookin dude, but man, has he got some pipes.

of course you all know them from the theme song of the 80's hit film "Pretty In Pink" starring molly ringwald and mr. jon cryer who has made a nice little name for himself on two-and 1/2 men. i'll forever know him as "duckie" though. and of course, how could you forget, the boyishly cute andrew mccarthy, who once tried to play a roll as a bad guy and failed miserably because he's just too sweet. anyshmmooooooooooo....i'm drifting away from my point here, so moving along....

i had a tussle in me noggin about which song i wanted to post. it was a toss-up between "Heaven" and "The Ghost In You". i chose the latter. i'm now going to take you back to 1984 with this sweet lyrical gem :



i will also provide you with the lyrics because it is SUCH a beautifully written song:

A man in my shoes runs a light and
All the papers lied tonight
But falling over you
Is the news of the day

Angels fall like rain
And love (love, love)
Is all of heaven away

Inside you
The time moves
And she don't fade
The ghost in you
She don't fade

A race is on, I'm on your side and
Here in you my engines die I'm
In a mood for you
Or running away

Stars come down in you
And love (love, love)
You can't give it away

Inside you
The time moves
And she don't fade
The ghost in you
She don't fade

Don't you go
It makes no sense when
All your talk and supermen just
Take away the time
And get in the way

Ain't it just like rain?
And love (love, love)
Is only heaven away

Inside you
The time moves
And she don't fade
The ghost in you
She don't fade

nextly, let's stick with the same band and head to 1991 for "until she comes" :

(embedding is disabled, so follow THIS LINK)

in the early 90's richard butler and his brother, tim went on to form Love Spit Love (which strangely enough, richard seemed to gain a little weight and fill himself in and became a little more handsome), whom in my opinion, released their self-title album in 1994 and i absolutely adored it. i didn't follow much after that, but i will always have a place in my heart for The Psychedelic Furs.

happy friday to you all.

ciao.

Letting go of past anger

this has been an issue constantly on my mind and in my heart. what sparked me to write about it though, was bluegreendragonfly's post.

14 years ago, i was in a situation where i was raped and around the same period of time, dated someone who mentally and physically abused me off an on for 4 years. he was 8 years older than me - i was young and naive. it doesn't bother me or hurt to talk about it anymore.

i thought i had let this go and moved on in my life, but alas, when you think you do, you find that you carry it with you more than you think - especially in relationships, you find yourself acting on those old tendancies....not on purpose...only because it's all you have ever known.

all of my relationships from that point, had suffered the effect of these happenings in some form or another.

then i met someone (i don't want to divulge real names, but he does read this blog and knows who he is). he was my turning point. he was the only one that said "hey...you have these deep lying issues and i love you enough that i want you to get the help you need and i will go through it with you." we went to therapy together a few times....i don't think i could have done it without him. after a while, it became easier and i was able to go on my own. we ended up splitting up for ultimately the reasoning that i couldn't try and make our relationship work and focus on fixing my inner demons at the same time. it was a hard breakup for me because i did love him very much, but over time, i got over it. although, i still in my heart am so thankful for what he did for me...he knows that i am and even though we don't talk on a daily basis, we still are important aspects of each other's lives. i continued with therapy for 9 months after that point. it was the nicest and most caring thing that anyone has ever done for me and the best thing i could have done for myself. it's not for everyone, but in my instance, it was 100% the best thing for me. i was introduced to congnotive therapy and truly dealing with past demons head on and recognizing that when you experience these things they are placed in your memory bank and rear their ugly heads time and time again when something triggers them.

around this same time as well, i bought a bunch of self-help anger management books. after going through the therapy though, my anger was only associated with this and with things in my childhood i didn't realize until i learned to accept them and move on.

i've been a much happier person since that time. have had a couple of defunked relationships - each one different from the next, but learned from.

then i met Horizon. i know i go on and on about our relationship, but he truly is perfect for me.

BUT.....

i still have some underlying issues that i feel seeping out at times. not to the point of beyond reason as i did before, but things that still get triggered on occasion. he is the most honest and most loving man i have been with. and this is a new experience for the both of us and it's a learning experience. most of my relationships have involved some sort of dishonesty at some point...and the last one prior to this was a HUGE disappointment on a lot of levels....not regretable, but learned from. yet you still carry that wall and expectation that your current relationship will have some of these faults....and when they don't...it's almost a shock. maybe i've just been unlucky in love until now...who knows.

when you meet that perfect person for you, there is still growing pains. Horizon and i have been together now for 6 months and we have had some MAJOR growing pains. and we still do. and will continue to do so, but as long as we both carry that awareness and acceptance of this and keep our communication at the level it is, i have no doubt that we will make it through and we will flourish. a lot of the issues stem from his fairly recent ex (a year ago) - whom he is just now starting a divorce - due to money issues. so being in this position with him and the ex and the kids has put a huge strain on me and i find myself getting upset...recently a little too much.

i am aware of it and am working on it consciously. any advise anyone would like to offer would be greatly appreciated. i have it in me to overcome these annoyances and have confidence in myself. i have jealous feelings and feelings of detachment and helplessness at times....again...as i stated before...nothing out of control, but regardless i am feeling them. i am talking to him about it all too though, so i know that's helping, but i want to get to the point that i don't let these things bother me.

where do i need to go inside myself to do this - to find this strength?

Our Ambigram

the beautiful, talented hippie mama, Tiffany, created this gorgeous ambigram for us. i can't believe how beautiful it turned out.