MINDLESS JABBER

first off, i don't know what the deal is with my blogger account on my computer at home, but it won't let me login. weird.

anyway...i'm sick as a dog and this day officially sucks. i should have just called in and stayed home and slept all day. i did that yesterday, but apparently it wasn't enough.

in case ya'll were wondering, i ended up posting that little rant i had listed below on my myspace blog because of course i couldn't log in here to post it.

i have so much medicine pumping through my veins i feel like i'm in a cloud.

moving along to something positive because re-reading what i just wrote, i sound like i'm in a LOVELY mood. LOL.

ok....so i've been seeing someone for about a month now and he is amazing! yes, he's a real person...not an animal or anything of the sort. :-p depending on how far in depth i get into the blogger world again, i may end up having to re-adjust my cast of characters adding him. one that has vanished is "the roomie", but we will get into that at a later date. back to subject at hand....i will call him horizon as to stick with my code names to not cause any issues. he's beautiful, he's 29, he's divorced and has 3 kids. we are quite the brady bunch couple when we are all together...it's very amusing. i was a little hesitant about adding 3 extra kiddos into my life, but i gotta tell you, it's been wonderful. i instantly took to them and they've instantly taken to me...not to mention the ladybug adores them as well. i can't say that i have actually been this happy and content in a relationship...um...EVER. things are still very new of course, but things come so easy and so naturally for us. we are both givers in the relationship which creates a beautiful connection between us. i've ALWAYS been a giver in my relationships and never once have i experienced this. horizon gives me just as much as i give him. it's taken a bit to get used to this, but i highly recommend it. :-p so needless to say, i have been on cloud 9 lately and i fully intend on staying that way. and dammit, it's about time - i know i deserve this after so many defunct relationships i have had in the past. it's such an amazing feeling to know that someone cares for you as much as you care for them.

alright i'm done....gonna go back to attempting to stay awake sitting at my desk. zzzzzzzz. hopefully no one ends up reading this because i know my words sound goofy as hell.

this is gonna be a doozy

ok folks....i have run across a subject that i will heavily be venting upon when i get home tonight. don't have time to delve into this because i'm crazy busy at work, but if you are out there waiting for an update, look for a rant to be posted this evening....

i was listening to the radio this morning on my long commute to drop the ladybug off at school and the subject was brought up if it is ok in "women law" to fend off sex when your husband isn't doing his part to keep the house up....yah...like i said....my opinion on this is gonna fly...so stay tuned.

and another thing along this same line is this new carrie underwood song that i have heard recently on the radio called "before he cheats".

oh yah....you readers are in for an earfull (or eyefull to be precise)

it's been a while

hello to the blogger void!

i haven't posted in ages, but i think i'm going to be coming back with a bang...maybe. don't quote me on that.

much has happened since the last post, but i won't bore you with the details on that. a lot of ups and downs...many downs....but things have been looking WAY up recently, so that's very positive.

for now, i'll leave you with this to do a little summing up of the past several months....

damn u halloween

so i rarely EVER eat candy. i've narrowed it down to the fact that i was on a constant sugar high as a kid sneaking candy that my mother hid from me.

but dammit once halloween comes around i crave it. crave it like a dog craves snausages. (you can thank me later for that dog repeating the word snausages over and over again infinitely in your brain now)

it's always so amusing to me after taking the kiddos trick-or-treating and dumping out all of the goodies, the adults get to "inspect" the candy. to make sure there is...errrrr...no poison filled pieces. which in all actuality means, getting their pick of the crop. you should have seen us last night. we were like a swarm of bees.

anyhoo.....my point being that for the next couple of days i will probably be on a massive sugar high...and when i crash, i'm gonna crash HARD. so just fair warning, you might want to tread lightly in my presence through the end of the weekend.

move over rover

gah. can i just say how tired i am? sleeping arrangements in the house aren't up to par for me this week. having a roomie in a 2 bedroom house when you have a daughter is a little difficult in itself, but having another houseguest for the week due to a music gig this friday is really taking a toll on me. i'm forced to share my luxurious, lovely pillowtop bed with The Roomie. and that makes me a cranky betty. especially when you wake up in the middle of the night not only to the horrid sound of a loud snorer, but wake up on the edge of your own bed with someone else's arm flung over your face....that's not your significant other. i might be able to look past these things if that were the case, but dang it, when it's not, it's quite frustrating to say the least.

oh, oh...and not to mention, the schedule of a musician is definitely not meshing with mine, so i get woken up to guys coming in the house, turning on the tv, etc at 2am when i have to be at work at 8:30 in the morning. needless to say i almost reamed his ass last night. trust me you don't want to face me after being woken up from a deep sleep when i'm already exhausted. needless to say, i got about 1,000 i'm sorry's after he saw me turn into a demon. is it mean that i was as loud as i possibly could be getting ready for work this morning?

damnit...i need a nap.

me noggin's a throbbin

i headed the ball wrong yesterday in my soccer game....you think that may have something to do with it?

good news is we are 2nd in our division and still have chance to make first place. how excited am i?

you know you are a geek when

you sign up for yet another messenger, and realize you have 4 IM programs and all of them open at the same time. something is seriously wrong with this picture.

can all of my IM buddies, please sign up for the same messenger? it would really save me from looking like a major putzarino here. thanks, i'd appreciate it.

for.the.love.of.pete.

can someone please tell me why you will be driving down the road stuck behind some idiot going 35 mph in a 40 for MILES, you FINALLY get around him, get back in the same lane, come up on a kiddie zone and he climbs up your ass the whole way because he doesn't slow down for a flippin school zone?

jesus h. christ. on a big pile of poo.

Happy Friday the 13th!

don't forget to watch LOTS of scary movies !!! :)

Cast of Characters that may appear regularly

under assumed names of course.

Butterfly: moi. full throttle into my mid 30's - exploring myself and becoming very comfortable in my own skin. mother of 1. engaged as of 11/7/10. i like to think of myself as overly kind hearted, loyal, fun and slightly sarcastic at times. i have no regrets - it took a while to get to that point, but i am fully there. you will learn more about me as you read my blog entries.

The Ladybug: aka: my beautiful, amazing offspring. she's only 11, but you would think sometimes that she's 25. she's a princess in every aspect and my complete opposite. she loves anything that's girly and it makes me cringe and smile at the same time. i am looking forward to being known as her cooky hippie mom when she starts cheerleading and pageantry or whatever else tickles her fancy. so, the princess aspect has sure faded and she's almost in full tom-boy mode. she's has the hugest heart. she's a great kid. i have many many nicknames for her - "beber", "britches", "little monkey", "beezy" etc. she doesn't act too excited when i call her these things anymore. whaaa.

i may be referring to her dad and step-mom as Big Daddy and LuLu. just to preface our relationship, we have a very uncommon bond. we all get along famously. first we decided it was the right thing to do for the well-being of The Ladybug, but has now turned into a true friendship and true family. LuLu has become one of my best friends even outside of parenting and i am honored to call her family.

The Sissy: my gorgeous, talented sister. the dancer. we fought like cats and dogs when we were kids, but are now the closest of friends. i couldn't have asked for a better sibling. she speaks in her own language and it's catching.

The Rents: my folks. the two people that raised me and helped me develop into the person i am today. i love them both with all my heart. my mother and i feuded from my age of 13 through somewhere around 23. there is still that underlying tension, but i think we have both accepted the people that we are and just deal with it. my father is the most amazing man i have ever met in my life. he's loving, gentle, caring, collective....you get the picture.

The Gang: the best group of friends a gal could ever ask for. they are my family and i don't know what i would do without each and every one of them as a part of my life.

• Natorchen: i don't even know where to start....our friendship is priceless. i can talk to him about anything under the sun. his signature phrase is "no, but yah"...or "yah, but no". he says he is a descendant of the sasquatch. some days i believe him.
• The Davish One: freemason. the one i turn to for all my philosophical needs. smart as a tack. sarcastic and witty to a tee. i like to pick his brain, then it makes me mentally tired. i give him advise on women. he's still trying to figure it all out. sadly, i have told him that it will be a forever ongoing battle. he's starting to realize this.
• Crack Monkey: once known as "my other hip". we were inseparable for a few years. she's still my best girl. we don't see each other very often due to life in general, but when we do spend time together it's like no time has passed. we are very silly girls when together. we are also known as The Fly Girls. and we have our own language we speak in.
• DJ Capone: one of my oldest friends out of them all. he's one of a kind. he's hispanic and hates beans. he likes to flip off cameras when he's getting his picture taken. we IM each other throughout the work day to keep ourselves sane.
• ADMUSICA: pure genious. i've witnessed him composing a classical musical piece while sitting at a table in a crowded bar. one of the most obscure people i know. he makes me laugh and says things that hardly make sense. often.
• Martian: (he would die if i knew i nicknamed him that on my blog) he has his own ism's. he should publish them. he has mood swings worse than any woman i have ever seen. but you have to love him. he gives the best hugs in the world and afterwards, his smell lingers on you until you change clothes. or shower for that matter.
• Chaser: oh chaser. crazy.mo.fo. cute as a button. he is the happiest person i know. he is always smiling and it's quite infectious. fun to hang out with, but let's face it...he's flakey as hell. although i have to say recently, i'm seeing a change in him....maturing maybe? hmmm....nahhhhhhhh
• E-Dogg & E: also known as E (squared). just recently married...they are so cute it's sickening. i envy their relationship and their will to get out and see the world while they are young. so fun to hang out with - guaranteed to be good times

The Adopted Family: Mama & Pop living in bermuda. my best friend and adopted sis: Pea who i have known 20+ years. Nene & Booty : adopted brothers. i consider all of them my family as much as i do my parents and my sister.

Ivycurlz : c-r-a-z-y doesn't even begin to describe her. funnest person i know - makes me laugh hysterically on a daily basis. makes my work day workable - don't know what i would do without her. known her about 10 years. has the sweetest 15 year old daughter who is ladybug's best friend. she also loses her debit card on a daily basis.

The Fiance : engaged as of 11/7/10. been together off an on for 6 years. many trials and tribulations, but we were reunited in july of 2010 and have been together ever since and now engaged to be married. we've been through more than most people go through in a lifetime already. he is my ONE. always has been and always will be. i may have tried to deny that in the past, but i would never now. he is my rock and my other half.

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there may be some additions to this cast, so i will make sure to link it back when necessary.

"Look, you stupid Bastard. You've got no arms left!"

buenos dias!

welcome to my new blogging journey.

i've inhabitated blogger before, but after a much needed absense, i am back in full force.

stay tuned for a wild ride through my sometimes too in-depth mind, body and spirit. don't worry - i'm not shy when it comes to blogging, there will be plenty of juice.

so grab a cup o' joe and feel free to stay a while. mi casa es tu casa.