Prepping for my 3 day weekend

i'm going to try my damnedest not to take any work home this weekend. we'll see how that pans out. i'm kind of in a blah mood today for whatever reason. my body is sore as i have already played 3 soccer games this week and going for my 4th this evening. thank goodness i have a break on sunday since it's labor day weekend and we don't have a game. i need the break desperately. my body's not young anymore.

i'm tired of money woes. electric bills this summer are kicking me in the a$$ and i am broke constantly. gotta love the texas heat. it's not like i go shopping or buy anything lavishing or go out drinking. because i don't. it all goes to bills. agh! i'm just frustrated. i just got paid today and it's already all gone. sickening.

i sure hope gustav doesn't head for new orleans, although it looks like that's the path it will take. hopefully it will decrease in category by then. today is the 3rd year anniversary of hurricane katrina and the devastation it caused the city of new orleans. not to mention our crap a$$ government who completely dropped the ball on helping these people. it makes me tear up just thinking about it.

i haven't been able to see ANY of the DNC, which i am so pissed off about. i simply haven't had the time to sit down and watch any of it this week - with the ladybug starting school this week, soccer, work, taking work home....i haven't even had time to breathe. i'm hoping i can look online this weekend and watch some videos of what i've missed. i've heard it's been quite phenomenal...i didn't even get to hear obama's speech last night either, which i'm even MORE p/o'd about. agh. i really need a vacation. no money = no vacation. fantabulous.

pardon my sour mood today folks. i'm going to get back to work.

edgar winter and rick derringer are at HOB tonight...which would be a killer show of the classic rock persuasion. so, in honor of that, please enjoy this classic from the edgar winter group :

http://www.last.fm/music/Edgar+Winter/_/Free+Ride

and this from rick derringer:

soulhat

soulhat is one of my favorite local - as in austin - bands. i have been fortunate enough to see them many times live mostly 6-7 years ago, but recently got to see them again i believe close to a year ago with patrice pike (who i LOVE as well) at the granada theater. they always put on a kick-ass show. so i threw in experiment on a flat plane this morning on my way to work and rocked out the entire way.

it's hard to find much of their music out there on the web, but i found bonecrusher, which is definitely an awesome song, so wanted to share. enjoy!

Moments of Clarity and Full Body Cleanses

for those of you that are interested in what's really been going on with me on a personal level, i've posted HERE.

~ namaste ~

Marry You

Which Twilight Character Are You?

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Pressure Drop

RIP LeRoi Moore

i walked into work this morning and saw this on msn and my heart sunk. http://music.msn.com/music/article.aspx/?news=327570&GT1=28102

what a horrible tragedy.

http://www.dmband.com/

"It's always easier to leave than be left," Matthews told the crowd, according to Ambrosia Healy, the band's publicist. "We appreciate you all being here."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uesIbOfT8hk

i can't even think of the words to say, so i will just leave with a dave song.

Play Possum?

there's only a few bugs or animals or things that really make me cringe. i try and have respect for all living things, including some of the less enchanting species that share our earth. roaches, rats and big spiders of the hairy persuasion are the main things that i try and stay away from. i know they all have their own place and significance on this earth, but that doesn't mean i have to want to hang out with them or like them really for that matter.

i've never really thought much of possums. mainly because i've only seen one up close in my life that wasn't dead (no pun intended) or running away quickly and was staring me dead in the face as soon as i opened my front door in the dead of night. talk about a little scared.

anyway...if only i had a video camera for this moment on saturday evening, when i casually open my back door with my glass of red wine to step out back for a moment and i see something dart across the top of the fence and run quickly off to my left. i realized in an instant that it was in fact a possum...although i'm sure my face was priceless. i realized i had stopped breathing for a second. i had to catch my breath as i closed the door behind me very slowly. it was then that i saw another one sitting on top of my fence. very still except that he kept turning his head to the side to glance at me. i opened the door not taking my eyes off the rat-imal and said "guys...uh...can you come here for a moment?" crack monkey joins me at the door along with the ladybug and we all stood in bewilderment for a moment staring at this thing. i'm not gonna lie...it was creepy. and even creepier that when we made noise or tried to shoo it away, it just sat there. one moment with it's back to us, the next moment, moving it's head to the side to stare at us. i didn't realize that their tails were so rat-like...which makes it even harder for me to sit here without getting the chills.

anyway....the ladybug caught it on film:




looking at these photos gives me the shivers whew.

on a happy and smiley and fuzzy note, here's mr. marshall at 3 months courtesy of the ladybug. we took him to the vet on saturday for his 2nd round of shots and the vet just about freaked. he's grown 71% in 3 weeks. he's now 22 lbs. good lord. we are gonna have a big fella on our hands.

Clocks (mariachi style)

ok...let me preface this by saying i thought for sure there was no way i was going to actually search for this and find it. me and a few girlfriends from work went to lunch at mercado juarez and i overhead this playing...i was like you can't be serious? we got a good giggle out of it...little did i know, it's really a legitimate remix. wow. i'm speechless.

update: holy crapsky! how did i not know about THIS ALBUM. i'm going out and buying it this weekend!

Gravity

i heard this song today and it took me to another place and literally made me feel like i was floating. i couldn't find this version except for here...so you will have to click to take you to the site.

sara bareilles & sonos : "gravity"

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do
I’ll still feel you here
’til the moment I’m gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much
than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

[CHORUS]
Set me free, leave me be.
I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way
I’m supposed to be.
But you’re on to me and all over me.

You loved me ’cause I’m fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

[CHORUS]
Set me free, leave me be.
I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way
I’m supposed to be.
But you’re on to me and all over me.

I live here on my knees
as I try to make you see that you’re everything
I think I need here on
The ground.
But you’re neither friend nor foe
though I can’t seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that
you’re keeping me down

Vultures

We're Gonna Rock Down To...(wait for it)

and of course we can't forget about jenny:

You're Gonna Need a Bigger Boat

guess what movie i watched last night? hehehe one of the best lines in a movie. ever.

Breathe

it's a confirmation for your imagination
this type of situation goes on and on
what to do, how to say
when every little thing seems to get in my way

well i can't breathe
and i wish that you couldn't take your eyes off me
but it's never easy as it seems, is it?
please, softly before i scream
breathe, breathe, breathe

you say you adore me
what good could you be for me
and after i'm gone, wondering where you went wrong
cause you're only taking inches when i'm giving you miles
did you figure that maybe i wasn't worth your while?

well i can't breathe
and i wish that you couldn't take your eyes off me
but it's never easy as it seems, is it?
please, softly before i scream
breathe, breathe, breathe

cause where you got me is where you want me
when you had me but you left me
and i let this go on for so long
got me where you want me
well you had me but you left me
and i let this go on for so long

and i can't breathe
and i wish that you couldn't take your eyes off me
but it's never easy as it seems, is it?
please, softly before i scream
breathe, breathe, breathe

(p.s. - i also posted a blog at http://butterfly-musings.blogspot.com/)

Groovin' Slowly

obviously i can't post any youtube videos, soooooooooo i'm not having flashback friday today...in fact...not sure when i'll be able to continue that installment. hopefully i can figure something out.

i've been listening to my john butler trio - grand national cd non-stop for the past 2 days. and LOUD at that. if you don't yet own this cd, i highly suggest you go purchase it. or download it or whatever you need to do. you won't be disappointed trust me.

i was actually surprised that when we were in the car last night driving to dinner, i had it on and LL was like 'whoa, who is this?'. i've been telling him about them (and of course if it's not blues/classic rock/funk type genre's, it's hard for him to steer away from that). when "daniella" came on, he listened and actually played it again. i was pretty excited about that.

so today i have 2 songs that i would like to share with you all as they are both stuck in my head and making me feel AWESOME today. happy friday!!!!



Beautiful woman, so sexy
Come shake that bottom over, over to me
Feel that one drop, feel that skank
Brother B playing that Hip Hop
It better than a, money in the bank
Lights are low, moon is high
I want you to know
That you're the brightest star in my sky and

I'm groovin' slowly
With my woman
Groovin' slowly
With my wo-man

DJ play that music
All night long
Play that funky kingston
You know it's our, our favourite song
Feel that back beat
Feel that groove
Got my baby on the dancefloor
She doin all her, her favourite moves

I want you to know girl
I want you to feel
I want to show you
That my love is real
I want you to see girl
You're the brightest star that shines
Even though there is no forever
I'm gonna love you 'til the end of time

'Cos I'm, I'm groovin' slowly

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There are things in this life I
would rather not sacrifice.
You girl I cannot live without and
you know there's no doubt that
All I mind's losing you.

I don't mind losing sleep
Pray the lord my soul to keep
I'll get plenty of rest when I am dead
but till then won't you share my bed
cuz all I mind's losing you
All I mind's losing you

And I don't mind losing money
There's nothin this life owes me
I've been given more
than I can receive
But for you there's no receipt
So all I mind's losing you
All I mind's losing you

I don't mind growin o-old
Losing teeth and going bald
Not as handsome as I ever was
But you love me just because
All I mind's losing you
All I mind's losing you

There are things in this life I
would rather not sacrifice.
You girl I cannot live without
and you know there's no doubt that

All I mind's losing you (x3)

ACAI everything

over the last few weeks, my hotmail inbox (which i don't normally use for my primary email due to all the spam i get there) exploded with advertisements for the acai berry stuff.....claiming to be the new everything healing, superfood. is this possible? can one little berry contain all of these benefits or is this just a new fad?

as much as i believe in natural foods and natural healings.....i get very wary about things like this. unfortunately, due to my anxiety condition, i have chosen to take the common medical approach to living with my disease. therefore, this henders me from partaking in a lot of the herbal and natural routes that in my heart, i would prefer to use. as time goes on, i may decide the natural route will be better for me, but for now, i am sticking to what's worked for me for 5 years.

i am new to this acai phenomenon and i haven't really read more than a couple of articles over the past few days about it.

is anyone out there taking this? is it all a big hoax? or is there some real miracle in this stuff?

My Private Escape

after thinking about this for a bit, i've decided to leave this blog public. i have, however, created another blog that is invitation only for my more personal experiences that i do not necessarily wish for just anyone to have access to.

if you'd like access to this blog, please email me : lala226 (at) gmail (dot) com.

i will post a notification on this blog when i have posted one on the other, so you know when to check.

i just posted a blog : http://butterfly-musings.blogspot.com/

Taking the Risk ~ Daily Om 8/1/08

i subscribe to DailyOm and receive my daily emails, which i always read. even if i might not find a particular day to be too relevant for me, they are very moving and insightful. today's is quite appropriate for the life i have chosen to live over the past several years.

i celebrate WHO i am everyday. and what i'm about. I AM REAL. i am open about who i am and i am honest about how i feel. i don't play games, although i've been faced with the challenge several times over the years and here more recently. i have let it go. i won't get drug down with the negativity. i am a positive person. i am comfortable in my own skin. i can not be anymore than i am or strive to be. i am beautiful inside and out. i celebrate myself, my life, my family and my friends. i am whole. i am love. i am compassion. i am understanding. i am human. i am living.

and so are you.

celebrate life today and everyday and focus on being real. the world would be a much better place if we could all strive a little harder to let our inner souls shine through in everything we do. throw the masks away. celebrate YOU.

August 1, 2008

Taking The Risk

Permission To Be Real

Most of us are familiar with the idea of keeping it

real and have an intuitive sense about what that

means. People who keep it real don’t hide behind a

mask to keep themselves safe from their fear of

how they might be perceived. They don’t present

a false self in order to appear more perfect, more

powerful, or more independent. People who keep it

real present themselves as they truly are, the

good parts and the parts most of us would rather

hide, sharing their full selves with the people who

are lucky enough to know them.

Being real in this way is not an easy thing to do as

we live in a culture that often shows us images of

physical and material perfection. As a result, we

all want to look younger, thinner, wealthier, and

more successful. We are rewarded externally when

we succeed at this masquerade, but people who

are real remind us that, internally, we suffer.

Whenever we feel that who we are is not enough

and that we need to be bigger, better, or more

exciting, we send a message to ourselves that we

are not enough. Meanwhile, people who are not

trying to be something more than they are walk

into a room and bring a feeling of ease, humor,

and warmth with them. They acknowledge their

wrinkles and laugh at their personal eccentricities

without putting themselves down.

People like this inspire us to let go of our own

defenses and relax for a moment in the truth of

who we really are. In their presence, we feel safe

enough to take off our masks and experience the

freedom of not hiding behind a barrier. Those of us

who were lucky enough to have a parent who was

able to keep it real may find it easier to be that

way ourselves. The rest of us may have to work a

little harder to let go of our pretenses and share

the beauty and humor of our real selves. Our

reward for taking such a risk is that as we do, we

will attract and inspire others, giving them the

permission to be real too.

p.s....happy birthday jerry. (thank oceanshaman for your lovely posts and reminding us to celebrate jerry's legacy today)