Wednesday, October 05, 2011
Or do you feel the same?
Will it make it easier on you now?
You got someone to blame
When it's one need
In the night
We get to share it
Leaves you baby if you
Don't care for it
Did I disappoint you?
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth?
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
To drag the past out into the light
We're one, but we're not the same
We get to
carry each other
carry each other
Have you come here for forgiveness?
Have you come to raise the dead?
Have you come here to play Jesus?
To the lepers in your head
Did I ask too much?
More than a lot.
You gave me nothing,
Now it's all I got
But we're not the same
Hurt each other
Then we do it again
Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple
Love is a higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
And I can't keep holding on
To what you got
When all you've got is hurt
You got to do what you should
With each other
But we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other
Friday, May 13, 2011
i have been making lots of jewelry and have updated my etsy shop with all of my in stock items. take a look and feel free to purchase anything you'd like :)
you can also find me on facebook : search "sunshine butterfly creations"
ciao for now!
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Tuesday, February 08, 2011
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
butterfly : “eclectic”? what exactly is an ECLECTIC hole punch? Is it a little bohemian?
ivycurlz : Oh it’s a souped up version of the electric one, its all the rage!
Monday, December 27, 2010
i am also incorporating this color into my dress now. so it will be the green from below and this sand/nude color in the sash. i think it will be stunning.
so here's the thing. i haven't actually been to any bridal shops locally yet, but i would like the dress to be under $100 for my bridesmaids. since i am a bit granola and my dress is very eco-friendly, i would also love the bridesmaid's dresses to be as well...but if not, i can let it slide.
any ideas out there? and any links that you find, please feel free to let me know.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
the above photo is the basis of the dress. it will be made from hemp silk charmeuse. (no you can not smoke my dress after the wedding, so don't even ask - i've already had plenty of requests to do so :p)
the above photo will show the color green sash that will be under the bodice of the dress. it will be this color green and my seamstress will also be incorporating another green (in place of the brown shown in the photo).
and lastly, the above photo is the rough sketch of my dress. originally we were going to go with the brown in the sash like the photo above this, but i have changed my mind and now we are incorporating 2 shades of green. obviously the colors in the sketch aren't true to actual color.
i'm so excited about my dress i can hardly see straight. anything else about the plans could fall into place by themselves for all i care. i can't wait to wear this gorgeous piece of art. :)
a lot has happened since my last post.
the biggest news is i am blissfully engaged to my amazing fiance since november 7, 2010. our wedding date is set at march 26, 2011, but this is about as far as we've gotten. i am having my dress made and the lovely mama that will be stitchin it up is starting on it tomorrow :) i'm so excited. it's going to be stunning!
i am still getting used to the fact that i am engaged or hearing myself being called "fiance" or "soon to be wife", however, it didn't take long for me to get used to my ring being on my finger. i am not one that wears any jewelry with the exception of necklaces. i never have worn rings before. but i stare at it all the time. it's perfect, simple and beautiful. whenever it is off of my finger (washing dishes, washing hands, shower), i feel completely naked.
life is good!
i went through a horrible quick relationship that ended in june that i would rather not rehash. my fiance and i have been together off and on for 6 years. he came back into my life at the beginning of july and it was finally meant to be. our relationship is stronger than ever and our love for each other only grows daily. i am incredibly blessed and a very lucky woman.
and I'M GETTIN MARRIED!!!! :) :) :) :) :)
the ladybug is doing well. she's in the 6th grade (my eyes still bug out when i say or read that), learning to play the violin and making great grades. she's really excited about our engagement and the union of both of our families, which she will be getting 3 more siblings - 2 brothers and a sister. she's such a joy and such an amazing little person.
other than that, i lost a bunch of weight. 35 lbs to be exact. however, over the last 2 months, i gained 10 of it back. :\ so i'm back on my diet now and i've lost 6 of those 10 lbs already, but ultimately i'm headed for 20 more to be at my goal weight. then it will all be about maintaining.
i've also begun a life-program that is amazing. it's a process and something i will be including in my life for the remainder of my days, but i feel very positive about it. it's something that my fiance and i do together and it will be a major staple and strength in our long life together.
christmas is coming up entirely too quickly. this is my favorite time of year, but it comes and goes in the speed of light. AND i haven't gotten any christmas shopping done, so guess what we will be doing this weekend? joy. i wish i could just make everyone something, but obviously ran out of time to be able to do that too. gotta love procrastination.
work has been insanely busy and part of the reason why i haven't been posting on here at all as well.
so that's about it for now. i will try not to be such a stranger. i miss blogging. it's always a good form of therapy. ;)
hope my 2 faithful readers out there are doing wonderfully and enjoying life to the fullest.
~ much love ~
Monday, September 27, 2010
1. i underwrote a loan where the borrower has had 2 jobs in the last 2 years and his most current job, he was laid off and on unemployment for a couple of months THIS year. so i asked that the employer state the dates of unemployment on the verification of employment and MUST state that it was not likely to happen again.
broker responds with an email stating that the borrower is upset about this and why would we need this, etc.
i respond back with "unfortunately I need them to state that it is unlikely to happen in the future to establish stability of income. His employment is not 100% stable in my opinion."
so broker responds back with "what about his employment is not stable?!"
so we go round and round....this was last week.
this morning, we get an email from the broker...
Please do NOT continue working on the above file. Customer has cancelled.
so ivycurlz emails her back and asks if she wants us to go ahead and cancel out the file.
her response :
"please..................guess what.................Mr. S* lost his job !!!............guess the underwriter called that one, huh !!!"
2. "This is an emergency we are going to lose this loan if we don't fund for september. Conditions attached - lets get the CTC!!!
Thanks again, *name withheld*"
let me clarify that CTC means 'clear to close'.
so ivycurlz looks at the conditions that were sent in and the broker fails to realize that the written verification of employment that was completed by the employer states that the borrower RESIGNED 9/8/10.
DEAR LORD HELP ME.
no, these scenarios did NOT happen, but we made fun anyway :
butterfly : Hey I have a borrower that has been at 12 jobs in the last 2 years and unemployment on top of that. But we PROMISE they will still be at their job for many years to come, so you shouldn’t need to prove stability of income, right?
farls : ok so my borrower has never had a job but promises to get one if you approve this mortgage loan.
Please condition for the promise note, and make that a funding condition...need to close asap!
ivycurlz : Scenario:
Excellent credit customer (mid 500’s) been on the job for 6 months (laid off twice in the last year its not their fault though I can get an LOX) and only 42 NSF’s in the past 60 days, what do you think?
butterfly : Hey! I need a CTC right now like yesterday like right now and here all my conditions and I’m such an idiot that I didn’t even see that the VOE says he had resigned. OMG> LOL. IDK. I’m so silly.
farls : I really need to close this file, the borrowers girlfriends, cousin's, neighbor's, best friend is going to promise to split the payment if he can use the garage for a pharmaceutical production facility.Borrowers promises this is not an illegal operation and will be very profitable, can you make this a funding condition? Really need to get this done before the end of the month.
Monday, September 20, 2010
Thursday, August 05, 2010
Thursday, July 22, 2010
I love you and I dont wanna not be with you anymore
girl: i know i'm serious too
i never thought you would say any of this to me
my heart is racing
so just deal with it
it scared me and i ran all the time
I dont want to run away anymore
but i could never and would never force you to feel something you didn't
and when we weren't together I missed you so much
i feel like i'm dreaming
boy: i miss u
i don't want you to either
it wasn't until i TRULY TRULY let go (and yes, there is a difference between saying you have let go and truly doing so - i've experienced both - the prior many times) and had moved on, that he came back.
so a girl falls in love with a boy again.
for the first time.
Wednesday, June 09, 2010
Tuesday, June 08, 2010
please read and open for discussion.
firstly, this article is interesting and has some good points. however, i am getting a little irritated with all of the media's hype about the emotion / lack of emotion coming from our president. a lot of my respect and likeness for my president is that he is a calm and collective human being. black, white, green, orange...i don't give a flying frack. this is a sign of strength and intelligence in my opinion. it is not in his nature to be an angry person or a hot-head. didn't we all know this by now? george w. bush was a hot-head and flew off the handle every time we turned around. not to mention the fact that he is not very smart....someone like that is not someone who i want running our country. i want someone who is calm, collective and takes time to make a well thought-out educated decision on matters especially concerning the affect on my country. john mccain was george w. bush hot-head junior. he made that painfully obvious throughout all of the debates that mccain and obama had prior to obama being elected.
so either way....our president can not win. if he comes out flailing, he's automatically considered the "angry black man" by RWNJ's and if he comes out calm and collective, then he's not showing enough emotion. wtf people seriously. do i agree with my president 100%? no. do i support him 100%? yes. because i have faith in him and believe he has our best interest at heart for our country. do i think he should have acted a little quicker after the explosion of this oil rig? maybe so. but people need to quit putting all of this on him. this is not our president's "katrina" - which if i hear someone else say this, i am going to scream. he can't put on a wetsuit and become aquaman and dive 1 mile under the ocean and shut the leak off. he is doing the best that he can with the tools that he has. not to mention all of the other million pressing issues that our country has at the moment. he is only one man. one human man. have a little faith in him people and quit criticizing every little thing he does - especially something as trivial as showing the "correct" amount of emotion or not. ugh.
Wednesday, June 02, 2010
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
the earth is eating us
butterfly: sweeeeeeeeeeeet baby jesus with a thumb up his nose
ivycurlz: sweeeeet baby jesus got a rumble in his belly
hungry for humannzzz
jesus is a zombie
jesus built my hot rod
butterfly: i forgot to tell you happy zombie jesus day on easter
ivycurlz: its a love affair mainly between jesus and my hot rod, yeah fuck it
butterfly: i wanted to post that on my fb, but i was afraid too many people would get offended
stupid people. jesus was a funny guy.
ivycurlz: i would be offended
butterfly: i know you would...you were the one i was worried about
ivycurlz: he was prolly the class clown
pranks are for april 1st
in other news, the earth is eating us. literally.
i think the apocalypse has begun.
crackmonkey: "and those squirrels would be COVERED in makeup"
and i think you're right
butterfly: and to make you laugh...
Friday, April 30, 2010
butterfly: you think that's bad.... i keep getting flashes of "arthur" in my head
butterfly: dudley moore
crackmonkey: ugliest leading man ever
crackmonkey: how'd you like to have this for a last name: (website hidden)
butterfly: oh my god
it's your new russian name
ms. szafranski needs her vodkas
i wonder if the other parents will look at me funny if i bring a roadie to ladybug's game tonight
put it in a paper bag
crackmonkey: nah, just put it in a taco bell cup. i read on TFLN that the biggest size taco bell cup can fit a whole bottle of wine
butterfly: see you learn things on that site
crackmonkey: ok, this is a serious question now:
why. do. you. hate. me???
butterfly: not sure if you noticed or not, but i am having fun tormenting you with songs today
atleast i haven't rick rolled you
crackmonkey: hate you
crackmonkey: you just rick rolled me by phone!
i didn't know that was possible!
butterfly: LOL! classic
exactly how do you caught between the moon and new york city?
is that even possible?
crackmonkey: you bitch
i <3 you
no but in all seriousness....for real? was he on LSD when he wrote this song?
crackmonkey: maybe he was on a plane
i've been stuck between the moon and new york city before
that makes total sense now
thank you for the enlightenment
crackmonkey: that's what i'm here for
butterfly: i found it kind of hard to believe that christopher cross was on any mind altering drugs.
i mean...it's christopher cross
crackmonkey: thejonesey: what i wanna know is why is the owner of a broken heart so much better than an owner of a lonely heart?
Thursday, April 29, 2010
(insert banter, general cussing and mention of quitting the human race)
butterfly: i am going to create a facebook page called "praying for the death of all stupid"
and a picture with BIG ARMS
AND big hands
crackmonkey: and jazz hands
"praying for darwin's theory to working faster"
work, not working
see? i'm one of the stupids
butterfly: LMAO! i so love you
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
butterfly: so when i laid down to go to sleep last night i was laughing hysterically for some reason "do you have a flag?" came into my head and i couldn't stop laughing.
i need help
crackmonkey: i'm laughing about you laughing about "do you have a flag?"
we can't all do big arms!
butterfly: oh my god i am laughing so hard right now
we need to have a wine/eddie night soon
crackmonkey: yes please
i have bought that dvd 3 times. and each time was for someone else
butterfly: and we can have the lovers pizza guy deliver us a pizza. "oh i missa your house. and i poke badgers with spoons"
crackmonkey: jeff the god of biscuits!
i just read this conversation and pictured someone else reading it and the deer in headlights look on their face made me laugh even harder
crackmonkey: oh totally
WTF are these chicks talking about?
they need help
butterfly: pretty sure we would get that comment 80% of the time
crackmonkey: yeah, you're right
"L" cracked me up with Fo yesterday
butterfly: the other 20% is being all serious at work and shit
i know and she was probably like "what?"
crackmonkey: i know!
butterfly: sure it was a typo to her, but to us....
crackmonkey: did she just tell me to f.o.???
crackmonkey: unfortunately her hubby doesn't do iphone apps
i could've gotten him a jobby job
butterfly: then they would have to move back here!
crackmonkey: well...no. either denver or phoenix. :I
butterfly: oh well hell
those are both closer than wisCANson
ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh
i think i ate bad sushi yesterday
crackmonkey: my tummy is JACKED
crackmonkey: it was from a grocery store, doof
not a smart choice
butterfly: still something sketchy about raw fish
butterfly: you are yuk
crackmonkey: my tummy is yuk
butterfly: that too
crackmonkey: i totally missed a great yer momma up there
yer momma sketchy
butterfly: ha! you did!
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
crackmonkey: no shit
he's talking about moving to dallas :I
before we started talking, that is
butterfly: well...that's a start :) :)
crackmonkey: too soon!
butterfly: well not FOR you... he was going to anyway right?
if he does atleast he would be close enough so ya'll can hang and get to know each other
crackmonkey: yes. still, even talking to him feels TOO SOON!
butterfly: what's the harm in that?
well if it feels too soon then don't do it
but you are doing it...
crackmonkey: i know. ugh. i am a hot mess
butterfly: we all are
besides how can you define "too soon"?
sometimes meeting someone is the best way to get over someone else
off topic, john cusack totally tweets like he acts
and another thing...i don't know about this twatter business
it has managed to give me a headache...too overwhelming.
crackmonkey: oh whatever. i'll give you a tutorial. i really only use it a couple times a week, but check the ones i follow every day
butterfly: cafe brazil in deep ellum is serving apple chipotle chili as soup of the day. damnit! damn the beef! if it was turkey chili i would be all over that!
i bet we could find a recipe and sub turkey
gonna note that on my things to do list
good reason to make a big batch of it and have all of our non-commital friends come to dinner
we could make a drinking game out of guessing who will show
crackmonkey: yup - at my new casa!
we'll be eating chili for days
we are ridiculous
crackmonkey: i know
so are they though
butterfly: good point
crackmonkey: they still act like 22 year olds
butterfly: it's like benjamin button. they are aging in reverse
not true because they didn't start out old, wise and mature
crackmonkey: if they were aging into brad pitt, that'd be ok
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