Friday, January 30, 2009

An Excerpt for Your Friday

i finally finished the book eat pray love after it's taken me MONTHS to get through it. MONTHS. don't know why because the book was absolutely fantastical (yes, that's an SAT word). my theory as to why is because i went uber crazy for weeks on the twilight series and was so tired of reading, it took me a bit to get back into it. ha. this excerpt from the book, elizabeth is hanging with "richard" from texas who calls her "groceries". she met him at an ashram in india. it's simply. beautiful.


"But I really loved him.”

“Big deal. So you fell in love with someone. Don’t you see what happened? This guy touched a place in your heart deeper than you thought you were capable of reaching, I mean you got zapped, kiddo. But that love you felt, that’s just the beginning. You just got a taste of love. That’s just limited little rinky-dink mortal love. Wait till you see how much more deeply you can love than that. Heck, Groceries – you have the capacity to someday love the whole world. It’s your destiny. Don’t laugh.”

“I’m not laughing.” I was actually crying. “And please don’t laugh at me now, but I think the reason it’s so hard for me to get over this guy is because I seriously believed David was my soul mate.”

“He probably was. Your problem is you don’t understand what that word means. People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that’s holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then they leave. And thank God for it. Your problem is, you just can’t let this one go. It’s over, Groceries. David’s purpose was to shake you up, drive you out of that marriage that you needed to leave, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light could get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you had to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master and beat it.”

“….You’re like a dog at the dump, baby – you’re lickin’ at an empty tin can, trying to get more nutrition out of it. And if you’re not careful, that can’s gonna get stuck on your snout forever and make your life miserable. So drop it.”

“If you clear out all that space in your mind that you’re using right now to obsess about this guy, you’ll have a vacuum there, an open spot – a doorway. And guess what the universe will do with that doorway? It will rush in – God will rush in – and fill you with more love than you ever dreamed. So stop using David to block that door. Let it go.”


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Thursday, January 22, 2009

~ LOVE ~

love has many faces.

i've always had an abundance of love in my life. my family, my friends. i have been blessed. i am blessed.

as far as romantic love, i have always felt as though i have loved to the fullest. i've loved everyone i have been with with all the love i was able to give. i have no regrets. i hold each of my relationships in a very sacred place in my heart and have let each of them go.

there has always been 1 that i have never been able to let go of. we've been through so many trials and tribulations and we've said goodbye quite a few times. something always brings us back together. we have hurt each other, we have loved each other, we have brought joy to each other, and we have brought pain to each other.

but somehow, something always brings us back.

i can't predict the future, but this finally feels right. something was always a little off in previous times, but it finally feels like we've figured it out.

i love you baby. thank you for being who you are in my life today and in the future. i look forward to our journey, whichever way the wind takes us.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Inauguration Day - History Is Being Made

i am so overly excited today i can hardly stand it! i spent yesterday being pretty lazy on my day off for MLK jr. day. i watched the history channel most of the day with specials on dr. king. i learned a lot and it was so moving. and here, a day later after celebrating MLK's life and accomplishments, we swear in our first african-american president. change is coming my friends. FINALLY. i really can not express into words the emotions i am feeling right now.
(my only complaint is that former president dipwad is LITERALLY moving down the street from me. only a few miles away. ugh. great.)

"I stand here today as hopeful as ever that the United States of America will endure, that it will prevail, that the dream of our founders will live on in our time."
~ Barack Obama

Monday, January 05, 2009

~ Namaste ~

this is my theme for 2009.


The God/Goddess Spirit within me recognizes and honors the God/Goddess Spirit within you.

i first heard "namaste" when attending my first real hatha yoga class about 5 years ago. and the reason i say real is because this was my first yoga class that i actually walked away with a new sense of self. i had attended several yoga classes in the past with my father that were nice, but didn't give me that experience that i so truly desired. the physical aspect, the spiritual aspect, the aligning of my chakras, the meditation, the savasana, and as closure, namaste.

the divine in me blesses and honors the divine in you.

at the peak of my yoga practices several years ago, i got the om symbol tattooed on my right lower back.

over the past few years, i have veered away from my yoga practices and gone in different directions. there are several things in my life that i do for myself including soccer, jewelry making and reading. some things are missing. thank you to the guidance of my beautiful soul sister, brandi, i've attended several services at this church. i think i've found my home. the second step for me in this journey is to get back into yoga and meditation. it was such a huge part of my being and i let it slip away. the time has come to really bring it back into my everyday life. my soul is crying out for it.

the past several weeks have posed some huge challenges for me as well as some very positive regrowth in a couple of relationships, including a rekindled love. i don't know what the future brings, but i try and live my life fully with each new day. have no regrets and love with every part of my being. i am bound and determined to get as much fulfillment out of this life as humanly possible for me. it takes some sacrificing and sometimes going in a direction you are unsure of, but if your heart leads you there, don't be wary.

so my dear readers, NAMASTE to you all and i wish you the best year of your life in 2009. i know that's what i'm hoping for :)

~ peace and love ~