Monday, December 27, 2010


i have been trying to decide what colors i want my bridesmaid's dresses to be. i recently saw the movie 'wedding crashers' and absolutely fell in love with the bridesmaid's dresses in this movie. i love the scarlet colored ones at the end, but this is the one i am speaking of :

i am also incorporating this color into my dress now. so it will be the green from below and this sand/nude color in the sash. i think it will be stunning.

so here's the thing. i haven't actually been to any bridal shops locally yet, but i would like the dress to be under $100 for my bridesmaids. since i am a bit granola and my dress is very eco-friendly, i would also love the bridesmaid's dresses to be as well...but if not, i can let it slide.

any ideas out there? and any links that you find, please feel free to let me know.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

It's All About The Dress, Right?

so some of you out there might know how much of a non girlie-girl i am and i'm pretty simple as far as fashion/design goes. but i knew when and if i was ever getting married, i was going to have a very lovely, talented sweet mama make my dress for me. i will post who it is once i get the dress, so you'll just have to be in suspense until then. i did want to post the direction it is going in.

the above photo is the basis of the dress. it will be made from hemp silk charmeuse. (no you can not smoke my dress after the wedding, so don't even ask - i've already had plenty of requests to do so :p)
the above photo will show the color green sash that will be under the bodice of the dress. it will be this color green and my seamstress will also be incorporating another green (in place of the brown shown in the photo).
and lastly, the above photo is the rough sketch of my dress. originally we were going to go with the brown in the sash like the photo above this, but i have changed my mind and now we are incorporating 2 shades of green. obviously the colors in the sketch aren't true to actual color.

i'm so excited about my dress i can hardly see straight. anything else about the plans could fall into place by themselves for all i care. i can't wait to wear this gorgeous piece of art. :)

Is This Thing On?

howdy cyber blog world. i've been MIA for quite some time, but just had the urge to pop in and say hello.

a lot has happened since my last post.

the biggest news is i am blissfully engaged to my amazing fiance since november 7, 2010. our wedding date is set at march 26, 2011, but this is about as far as we've gotten. i am having my dress made and the lovely mama that will be stitchin it up is starting on it tomorrow :) i'm so excited. it's going to be stunning!

i am still getting used to the fact that i am engaged or hearing myself being called "fiance" or "soon to be wife", however, it didn't take long for me to get used to my ring being on my finger. i am not one that wears any jewelry with the exception of necklaces. i never have worn rings before. but i stare at it all the time. it's perfect, simple and beautiful. whenever it is off of my finger (washing dishes, washing hands, shower), i feel completely naked.

life is good!

i went through a horrible quick relationship that ended in june that i would rather not rehash. my fiance and i have been together off and on for 6 years. he came back into my life at the beginning of july and it was finally meant to be. our relationship is stronger than ever and our love for each other only grows daily. i am incredibly blessed and a very lucky woman.

and I'M GETTIN MARRIED!!!! :) :) :) :) :)

the ladybug is doing well. she's in the 6th grade (my eyes still bug out when i say or read that), learning to play the violin and making great grades. she's really excited about our engagement and the union of both of our families, which she will be getting 3 more siblings - 2 brothers and a sister. she's such a joy and such an amazing little person.

other than that, i lost a bunch of weight. 35 lbs to be exact. however, over the last 2 months, i gained 10 of it back. :\ so i'm back on my diet now and i've lost 6 of those 10 lbs already, but ultimately i'm headed for 20 more to be at my goal weight. then it will all be about maintaining.

i've also begun a life-program that is amazing. it's a process and something i will be including in my life for the remainder of my days, but i feel very positive about it. it's something that my fiance and i do together and it will be a major staple and strength in our long life together.

christmas is coming up entirely too quickly. this is my favorite time of year, but it comes and goes in the speed of light. AND i haven't gotten any christmas shopping done, so guess what we will be doing this weekend? joy. i wish i could just make everyone something, but obviously ran out of time to be able to do that too. gotta love procrastination.

work has been insanely busy and part of the reason why i haven't been posting on here at all as well.

so that's about it for now. i will try not to be such a stranger. i miss blogging. it's always a good form of therapy. ;)

hope my 2 faithful readers out there are doing wonderfully and enjoying life to the fullest.

~ much love ~

Monday, September 27, 2010

The Joys of MortgageLand

yes, these 2 stories REALLY happened. and today actually :

1. i underwrote a loan where the borrower has had 2 jobs in the last 2 years and his most current job, he was laid off and on unemployment for a couple of months THIS year. so i asked that the employer state the dates of unemployment on the verification of employment and MUST state that it was not likely to happen again.

broker responds with an email stating that the borrower is upset about this and why would we need this, etc.

i respond back with "unfortunately I need them to state that it is unlikely to happen in the future to establish stability of income. His employment is not 100% stable in my opinion."

so broker responds back with "what about his employment is not stable?!"

so we go round and round....this was last week.

this morning, we get an email from the broker...

"Good Morning,

Please do NOT continue working on the above file. Customer has cancelled.


so ivycurlz emails her back and asks if she wants us to go ahead and cancel out the file.

her response :

"please..................guess what.................Mr. S* lost his job !!!............guess the underwriter called that one, huh !!!"


2. "This is an emergency we are going to lose this loan if we don't fund for september. Conditions attached - lets get the CTC!!!

Thanks again, *name withheld*"

let me clarify that CTC means 'clear to close'.

so ivycurlz looks at the conditions that were sent in and the broker fails to realize that the written verification of employment that was completed by the employer states that the borrower RESIGNED 9/8/10.




no, these scenarios did NOT happen, but we made fun anyway :

butterfly : Hey I have a borrower that has been at 12 jobs in the last 2 years and unemployment on top of that. But we PROMISE they will still be at their job for many years to come, so you shouldn’t need to prove stability of income, right?


farls : ok so my borrower has never had a job but promises to get one if you approve this mortgage loan.
Please condition for the promise note, and make that a funding condition...need to close asap!

ivycurlz : Scenario:
Excellent credit customer (mid 500’s) been on the job for 6 months (laid off twice in the last year its not their fault though I can get an LOX) and only 42 NSF’s in the past 60 days, what do you think?

butterfly : Hey! I need a CTC right now like yesterday like right now and here all my conditions and I’m such an idiot that I didn’t even see that the VOE says he had resigned. OMG> LOL. IDK. I’m so silly.

farls : I really need to close this file, the borrowers girlfriends, cousin's, neighbor's, best friend is going to promise to split the payment if he can use the garage for a pharmaceutical production facility.Borrowers promises this is not an illegal operation and will be very profitable, can you make this a funding condition? Really need to get this done before the end of the month.

Monday, September 20, 2010

Jeremy Spoke In Class Today

this is an odd post and entirely random as i haven't posted on this thing in so long, but this is sparked by a conversation i had over the weekend about the well-known pearl jam song "jeremy". years after the song came out i remember having arguments with people about who this song was about. it took me way back and brought back so many memories. i argued that this was about a kid that killed himself in richardson, a suburb of dallas. i would always get crazy looks and the "whatever" reactions.

i met jeremy prior to his death. the memory is a little hazy, but i remember his face. end of 1990-beginning of january 1991. i was 14, about to be 15 and in the 9th grade. i was over at my friend dusty's house one day and there was this kid jeremy there - if i remember correctly he had a friend or two with him as well. i remember us all hanging out for a while that day although i don't remember what we did. i remember that jeremy liked dusty very much, and i remember talking to her about him and her feelings toward him were not mutual. so i'm pretty sure they stopped talking. it wasn't long after that time that we had heard the news that he had killed himself in front of his classroom in a high school a few miles away from us. dusty and i had started to drift apart as friends at that time, but i do remember talking to her and she was so distraught by it and feeling like somehow her not liking him back had a part in his actions. we were just kids when this happened, but the affect it had on us was scarring. we were too young to understand.

so this morning, i got on the internet and did some research. there are interviews with eddie vedder where he does in fact state that this song was written after he had read the news about jeremy wade delle taking his own life in front of his high school classroom at richardson high school in richardson, tx.

going back to this time in my mind is so strange...i haven't visited that specific place in so many years.

jeremy, so many years after you took your own life, i think of you today and remember back to the day that you did this. i'm sorry that you felt like you had to leave this earth when you did. being a teenager was the roughest part of my's amazing that many of us do make it out alive. i remember your face and seeing your photo has a true sense of eeriness. rest in peace, dear jeremy.
here's a good website dedicated to him :

Thursday, August 05, 2010

Stairway to Where?

butterfly: and she's buying a stairway
to your mama's houseeeeeeee

ivycurlz: and as I wind on down the road, my culos bigger than my soul

Thursday, July 22, 2010

If You Love Someone....

boy: baby i've come to the conclusion that we need to be together forever
and ever
and ever

girl: finally...took you long enough to come to that conclusion!
boy: im serious
I love you and I dont wanna not be with you anymore
girl: really?
boy: baby
im serious

girl: i know i'm serious too
i never thought you would say any of this to me
my heart is racing
boy: well i am buddy
so just deal with it
girl: i would love nothing more than to deal with it
boy: you're the only person that has truly loved me and I was always to scared of it and always ran away
it scared me and i ran all the time
I dont want to run away anymore
girl: yes i know you did. and every time it broke my heart.
but i could never and would never force you to feel something you didn't
boy: im sorry
girl: please don't apologize
boy: I've always loved you
girl: just as i've always loved you
boy: no matter what i've said or done
and when we weren't together I missed you so much
girl: i almost don't know what to say
i feel like i'm dreaming

boy: i miss u
girl: i miss you too
boy: what do you think about what i said
girl: i'm still in shock. it feels like i'm dreaming.
boy: ???
girl: i'm speechless.
boy: i dont wanna be away from you again
girl: i never thought you would say those things to me
i don't want you to either
boy: well i saying them now
girl: so really? forever?
boy: we dont need to be apart again
i never knew if i truly believed in the saying "If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were."

it wasn't until i TRULY TRULY let go (and yes, there is a difference between saying you have let go and truly doing so - i've experienced both - the prior many times) and had moved on, that he came back.

so a girl falls in love with a boy again.

for the first time.

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

Philippe Cousteau, Jr.

i would like to take a moment to put the spotlight on this young man! ....philippe cousteau jr is an absolute inspiration. he's come into the spotlight as of late with the oil spill. yes, he is the grandson of jacques cousteau. and look at him, he's pretty easy on the eyes to boot.

he's been on media shows recently speaking about the oil spill and offering his expertise and opinion on the matter. he is the CEO of earthecho international, a non-profit organization whos mission is to empower youth to take action that restores and protects our water planet. he is the chief ocean correspondent for animal planet and also for planet green channel.

what an inspiration he is and his work is dignifying.

so a handsome environmentalist. what more could you ask for? :p

Tuesday, June 08, 2010

"Can A President Be An Angry Black Man?"

Can A President Be An Angry Black Man?

please read and open for discussion.

firstly, this article is interesting and has some good points. however, i am getting a little irritated with all of the media's hype about the emotion / lack of emotion coming from our president. a lot of my respect and likeness for my president is that he is a calm and collective human being. black, white, green, orange...i don't give a flying frack. this is a sign of strength and intelligence in my opinion. it is not in his nature to be an angry person or a hot-head. didn't we all know this by now? george w. bush was a hot-head and flew off the handle every time we turned around. not to mention the fact that he is not very smart....someone like that is not someone who i want running our country. i want someone who is calm, collective and takes time to make a well thought-out educated decision on matters especially concerning the affect on my country. john mccain was george w. bush hot-head junior. he made that painfully obvious throughout all of the debates that mccain and obama had prior to obama being elected.

so either way....our president can not win. if he comes out flailing, he's automatically considered the "angry black man" by RWNJ's and if he comes out calm and collective, then he's not showing enough emotion. wtf people seriously. do i agree with my president 100%? no. do i support him 100%? yes. because i have faith in him and believe he has our best interest at heart for our country. do i think he should have acted a little quicker after the explosion of this oil rig? maybe so. but people need to quit putting all of this on him. this is not our president's "katrina" - which if i hear someone else say this, i am going to scream. he can't put on a wetsuit and become aquaman and dive 1 mile under the ocean and shut the leak off. he is doing the best that he can with the tools that he has. not to mention all of the other million pressing issues that our country has at the moment. he is only one man. one human man. have a little faith in him people and quit criticizing every little thing he does - especially something as trivial as showing the "correct" amount of emotion or not. ugh.

Wednesday, June 02, 2010


crackmonkey : i'm trying to keep it local, like my produce. ;)

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Jesus Built My Hot Rod

ivycurlz: 4 missing after sinkhole swallows Quebec home
the earth is eating us
butterfly: sweeeeeeeeeeeet baby jesus with a thumb up his nose
ivycurlz: sweeeeet baby jesus got a rumble in his belly
hungry for humannzzz
jesus is a zombie
jesus built my hot rod
butterfly: i forgot to tell you happy zombie jesus day on easter
ivycurlz: its a love affair mainly between jesus and my hot rod, yeah fuck it
butterfly: i wanted to post that on my fb, but i was afraid too many people would get offended
stupid people. jesus was a funny guy.
ivycurlz: i would be offended
butterfly: i know you were the one i was worried about
zombie jesus
ivycurlz: he was prolly the class clown
silly jesus
pranks are for april 1st

My Dinosaur Ate Your Jesus Fish

butterfly: "we can't all do big arms!"
in other news, the earth is eating us. literally.
i think the apocalypse has begun.
crackmonkey: "and those squirrels would be COVERED in makeup"
and i think you're right
butterfly: and to make you laugh...
crackmonkey: lol

Friday, April 30, 2010

More Banter

crackmonkey: i'm so mad. can't get that damn song out of my head now
butterfly: you think that's bad.... i keep getting flashes of "arthur" in my head
crackmonkey: LOL
butterfly: dudley moore
crackmonkey: ugliest leading man ever
and shortest
butterfly: indeed.


crackmonkey: how'd you like to have this for a last name: (website hidden)
butterfly: oh my god
it's your new russian name
*crackmonkey* szafranski
crackmonkey: LMAO
ms. szafranski needs her vodkas
butterfly: LOLOLOL
i wonder if the other parents will look at me funny if i bring a roadie to ladybug's game tonight
crackmonkey: SNORT
put it in a paper bag
butterfly: classy
crackmonkey: nah, just put it in a taco bell cup. i read on TFLN that the biggest size taco bell cup can fit a whole bottle of wine
butterfly: see you learn things on that site
highly educational
crackmonkey: exactly


butterfly: total
*jazz hands*
crackmonkey: ok, this is a serious question now:
why. do. you. hate. me???
butterfly: not sure if you noticed or not, but i am having fun tormenting you with songs today
atleast i haven't rick rolled you


crackmonkey: hate you
butterfly: what?
crackmonkey: you just rick rolled me by phone!
i didn't know that was possible!
butterfly: LOL! classic

The Moon and New York City

butterfly: i have a question
exactly how do you caught between the moon and new york city?
is that even possible?
crackmonkey: you bitch
butterfly: LMAO!!!!!!!
i <3 you
no but in all seriousness....for real? was he on LSD when he wrote this song?
crackmonkey: maybe he was on a plane
i've been stuck between the moon and new york city before
butterfly: ohhhhhhhhhh
that makes total sense now
thank you for the enlightenment
crackmonkey: that's what i'm here for
butterfly: i found it kind of hard to believe that christopher cross was on any mind altering drugs.
i's christopher cross
crackmonkey: thejonesey: what i wanna know is why is the owner of a broken heart so much better than an owner of a lonely heart?
butterfly: LOL!

Thursday, April 29, 2010

The Death of Stupid

this conversation comes after i found out about a group on facebook that is 'praying' for the death of president obama....over 1 million fans, mind you.

(insert banter, general cussing and mention of quitting the human race)

butterfly: i am going to create a facebook page called "praying for the death of all stupid"
and a picture with BIG ARMS
AND big hands
crackmonkey: and jazz hands
"praying for darwin's theory to working faster"
work, not working
see? i'm one of the stupids
butterfly: LMAO! i so love you

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Jeff, the God of Biscuits

go ahead and try and make ANY sense of this conversation...LOL

butterfly: so when i laid down to go to sleep last night i was laughing hysterically for some reason "do you have a flag?" came into my head and i couldn't stop laughing.
i need help
crackmonkey: i'm laughing about you laughing about "do you have a flag?"
big arms
we can't all do big arms!
butterfly: oh my god i am laughing so hard right now
we need to have a wine/eddie night soon
crackmonkey: yes please
i have bought that dvd 3 times. and each time was for someone else
butterfly: and we can have the lovers pizza guy deliver us a pizza. "oh i missa your house. and i poke badgers with spoons"
crackmonkey: jeff the god of biscuits!
butterfly: LOL
i just read this conversation and pictured someone else reading it and the deer in headlights look on their face made me laugh even harder
crackmonkey: oh totally
WTF are these chicks talking about?
they need help
butterfly: pretty sure we would get that comment 80% of the time
crackmonkey: yeah, you're right
"L" cracked me up with Fo yesterday
butterfly: the other 20% is being all serious at work and shit
i know and she was probably like "what?"
crackmonkey: i know!
butterfly: sure it was a typo to her, but to us....
crackmonkey: did she just tell me to f.o.???
butterfly: LOL
crackmonkey: unfortunately her hubby doesn't do iphone apps
i could've gotten him a jobby job
butterfly: then they would have to move back here!
crackmonkey: either denver or phoenix. :I
butterfly: oh well hell
those are both closer than wisCANson
crackmonkey: LOL
ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh
i think i ate bad sushi yesterday
butterfly: SEE!
crackmonkey: my tummy is JACKED
butterfly: sushi=bad
crackmonkey: it was from a grocery store, doof
not a smart choice
butterfly: still something sketchy about raw fish
crackmonkey: yummy
butterfly: you are yuk
crackmonkey: my tummy is yuk
butterfly: that too
crackmonkey: i totally missed a great yer momma up there
yer momma sketchy
butterfly: ha! you did!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Today's Baby Jesus Quote

ivycurlz: weeeeeeeeeeeee babay jessusususu moonwalking to the safety dance
ssaffeety dance

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Hot Mess

butterfly: can you please find someone a little more local?
k thanks
crackmonkey: no shit
he's talking about moving to dallas :I
before we started talking, that is
butterfly: well...that's a start :) :)
crackmonkey: too soon!
too soon!
too soon!
butterfly: well not FOR you... he was going to anyway right?
if he does atleast he would be close enough so ya'll can hang and get to know each other
crackmonkey: yes. still, even talking to him feels TOO SOON!
butterfly: what's the harm in that?
well if it feels too soon then don't do it
but you are doing it...
crackmonkey: i know. ugh. i am a hot mess
butterfly: we all are
besides how can you define "too soon"?
sometimes meeting someone is the best way to get over someone else
off topic, john cusack totally tweets like he acts
horribly cute
and another thing...i don't know about this twatter business
it has managed to give me a headache...too overwhelming.
crackmonkey: oh whatever. i'll give you a tutorial. i really only use it a couple times a week, but check the ones i follow every day
butterfly: cafe brazil in deep ellum is serving apple chipotle chili as soup of the day. damnit! damn the beef! if it was turkey chili i would be all over that!
crackmonkey: YUM
i bet we could find a recipe and sub turkey
butterfly: oooooooooooooooh
gonna note that on my things to do list
good reason to make a big batch of it and have all of our non-commital friends come to dinner
we could make a drinking game out of guessing who will show
crackmonkey: yup - at my new casa!
we'll be eating chili for days
butterfly: LMAO!
we are ridiculous
crackmonkey: i know
so are they though
butterfly: good point
crackmonkey: they still act like 22 year olds
butterfly: it's like benjamin button. they are aging in reverse
crackmonkey: LOL
butterfly: well...
not true because they didn't start out old, wise and mature
crackmonkey: if they were aging into brad pitt, that'd be ok
butterfly: LOL!!!!


more at PING!

Tuesday, April 06, 2010


butterfly : So this new file I picked up to underwrite – last name “Manshack”


ivycurlz : LOL!!!!!!!!! Is he married? Cause that would be awesome to be Mrs. Manshack!

butterfly : Yes they are.

Manshack…baby manshack. Folks linin up outside just to get dowwwwwwwwwwn.

ivycurlz : Everybodys grooving everybodys movin baby

meggers : Tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin roof. Rusty!

farls : I got me a car it fits about 20 so come on and bring your juke box money.......

butterfly : The Manshack is a little ol’ place where…we can get togetherrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

ivycurlz : Manshack baby! Manshaaackk, that’s where its aaattt manshackkkk that’s where its aaatt

Monday, April 05, 2010


so i had some time to kill this afternoon after i had finished working and i starting going through my blog and skimming through all of my old posts. it's so fun to read them to see how much you have changed/grown and on the other hand, how you've stayed just the same.

i know i haven't been posting much. i'm just at a stage in my life that i've taken a step back from the blogging world. who knows if it's permanent or if i'll pick it back up and run with it again. it's just where i am now.

life is blissful - i turned 34 this year and my little ladybug is growing up so fast.

ciao for now ~ butterfly

Friday, April 02, 2010

End of The Week Banter

butterfly: off topic - i still want to check out the gospel brunch there at some point in my lifetime

natorchen: hehe ok

natorchen: you just gotta pick a day when you don't have soccer and peal your ass off tha couch

butterfly: yer mom

natorchen: that just read like "fuck off"

butterfly: we've known each other way too long

butterfly: :P

natorchen: hehehe

Thursday, April 01, 2010

I *heart* gmail

silly gmail. tricks are for kids.

Today's vowel outage

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Quote Of The Day

ivycurlz : "Sweet Babay Jesus on the summer sun"

Friday, March 19, 2010

Psycho Ramblings From The Overworked And Underpaid : Volume 7

ivycurlz: dammit
carey bros is in austin right now
lets go!
hes going to rudy's bbq then over to the tap room

butterfly: um i know!
my friend jaime saw him last night
so jealous!

ivycurlz: omg
can we peeease go?

butterfly: *ivycurlz*! we can't go you weirdo

ivycurlz: why not?

butterfly: um because we are broke and won't have a place to stay and it's crazy there right now

ivycurlz: you place yourself in the car and put it in drive
you have 1988210103 friends

butterfly: i am going to kick you
so what
and no i don't have that many friends

ivycurlz: surely one of the lives in austin

butterfly: several live in austin

ivycurlz: ?
ok then?

butterfly: *natorchen*'s down there right now too
as you know

ivycurlz: uh so you were saying we didnt have anywhere to stay?

butterfly: that doesn't escape the fact that i am broke and i'm not going to stalk cary
even though i love him
i stalk him enough with his fb posts

ivycurlz: uh
if we happen to be in the same bar as him that really doesnt make us stalkers

butterfly: HAHAHAHA
well we would go to the tap or whatever it's called
that is stalking because we know he's there
it's not like oh wow guess who just walked in

ivycurlz: oh well of course he would KNOW that

butterfly: then i could molest him and be ok with it

ivycurlz: oh theres *butterfly*, she must be stalking me cause shes here
and that guy over there, and that girl over there, and the waiter who is serving me

butterfly: *IVYCURLZ*
he would know i'm stalking him because i wouldn't get off of his leg

ivycurlz: *BUTTERFLY*
humpin carys leg
humpty humpt

butterfly: it's a reality sister

ivycurlz: yo sister
go sister
soul sister
hey sister

butterfly: you have officially cracked out. you need to go home.

ivycurlz: hi cary could you hold still? Im trying to hump your leg
ok thank you

butterfly: copy and paste this whole convo for me and send in an email will you?

ivycurlz: um ok

butterfly: stupid *messenger service* has jacked it up

ivycurlz: are you going to send this convo to him? That would be awesome

butterfly: no fruitcake - i'm posting it under our psycho ramblings
tick tock tick tock i'm waiting
butterfly sent a Buzz!

ivycurlz: yo mama waiting
i think you should send him this in an email on FB
he would prolly think it was hysterical
cuase he seems like he has a sense of humor

butterfly: he would probably ban us from coming within 30 feet of him ever or attending any of his shows.

ivycurlz: nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
he wouldnt
he would think it was funny
then be like WHOA these chicks seem funny
i am going to hire them
and we can quit our jobs
and see him everyday
the end

butterfly: i really wonder how your brain comes up with these things sometimes

ivycurlz: im pretty sure my mom did alot of drugs when she was preggers with me
i have no other explanation

butterfly: well that explains a lot then

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Stop Touching Me

conversation between ivycurlz and a fella up here at work.

"i would appreciate it if you would stop touching me."

ivycurlz: "If you give me a hug I will give you a 24 hour restraining order against myself."


ok i am going on my soapbox again for just a moment. pardon me please...

so as a lot of you know out there, i was in an on-again off-again relationship with someone for 5 years. and in the off times, i had dated some other people here and there...nothing panned out.
i went through a heartbreak with this person in august of '09. it was pretty tough to get over, but i made it through and have completely overcome it.

i tried to date a couple of months after and i realized it was too soon. went out on a few dates. no biggy.

so, why when i have met someone that i really like and am falling for in the most amazing way, do these other guys come out of the woodwork? i kid you not, in the last 3-4 days, i have gotten texts from 4 different guys that i don't talk to on a regular's like they sense that shit. i want to tell them all to f - off, but that would be entirely too mean of me and i'm just not that type of person. but i sure am thinking it. one even had the audacity to say "what have you gotten yourself into? i've been waiting for you!" WHAT?!?! you haven't spoken to me in months and once you find out that i am seeing someone, i get that? wow. just wow. so, i tell you what boys, you had your chance, you blew it or it just didn't work out...i've met someone and i'm going for it. see ya.

it's about damn time i deserve some happiness and have someone treat me with love and respect as i will do the same.

*end soap box.

adios for now.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Psycho Ramblings From The Overworked And Underpaid : Volume 6

ok so my last posting of one of these was oh...10 months ago. ha! i'm a slacker. sorry.

butterfly: christopher cross is on

ivycurlz: hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

butterfly: when you get lost between the moon and new york cityyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

butterfly: how do you get lost between the moon and new york city? was he high?

butterfly: lol

ivycurlz: i think we should email him and ask him to play at the WWF

butterfly: uh

butterfly: lol

ivycurlz: wha?

ivycurlz: WFF

ivycurlz: not WWF

butterfly: WWF made it funny....what is WFF?

ivycurlz: when you get caught between my coooololoooooo

butterfly: oh wildflower festival

butterfly: lol

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

1 killed in whale attack at SeaWorld’s Shamu Stadium

i'm not going to go too far off on my soapbox at the moment, but when i hear about WILD animals attacking and killing humans when we are forcing them in these small holding tanks like sea world and zoos, it makes me just want to say...YAH YOU DESERVE IT. these animals belong in the wild or in wildlife reserves...not holding tanks or cages and taught tricks for us.

ugh. *end soapbox*

1 killed in whale attack at SeaWorld’s Shamu Stadium

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Tons of HANDMADE PATCHWORK clothing for sale!!!!

hey my blogger friends...

as much as it BREAKS MY HEART TO DO THIS (i am crushed, can you tell?), i have gone through my closet and have pulled out all of my beautiful patchwork clothing i have purchased over the years from some lovely talented mamas and i'm selling them on ebay as we speak. i haven't been able to wear them in years and i want another gorgeous mama to be able to wear these unique items and show them off!

i just listed them all today and they are 5 day auctions so if you are interested in picking up any of these beauties, please bring them into a good home and wear them proudly as i know i did!

~ lots of love ~



Thursday, January 14, 2010

Friday, January 01, 2010

My New Year's NON-Resolution

alright so every year i make resolutions...some i actually follow through with...others just fall flat on their faces.

with that said, i am only making 2 "NON-resolutions" this year. of course there are specifics that i want to accomplish/change, but i'm not going to do that this year.

2009 certainly wasn't a bad year for me, but it entailed many struggles and heartaches.

so for is is.


2. release all negativity and things that bring negativity to my life

and i think that about does it.

wishing all my blogging world friends a beautiful and prosperous 2010!!!!

much love to all.