Just What I Needed

if you haven't noticed, i was down and out the past week or so due to a massive tension headache that i had developed. work was mentally and physically stressing me out to the point of this. i don't get headaches and have never experienced anything like this. i wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. i couldn't even make it into work thursday and friday i was so ill.

anyway....this weekend was much needed.

after getting LL off saturday morning and on his way to europe for 3 weeks, i met up with natorchen and we were off to our weekend getaway in east texas. my headache was still lurking, but i looked past it because i knew i needed to get out of the big city and get the down time.

the drive was nice. headed out east, went through my mother's home town of mineola...stopped there, bought some fresh east texas tomatoes, blackberries and a big ol' watermelon. and also took this picture:

mosied into tyler and met natorchen's folks for a late lunch at el charro's. it was YUM beyond belief. finally got into marshall late afternoon and got in some nice chill time with wes, kristal and pops. my head started to hurt again, so we decided to get into jefferson and go to the hotel, nap and get ready for the evenings festivities at auntie skinners. i still wasn't feeling 100%, but after resting a bit and getting ready, we headed out to see wes play at the bar. i finally got to relax, have a few beers and i felt much better. we had an AWESOME time.

it was quite a late night and we only managed to get about 6 hours of sleep, but we were up and out at 11 yesterday and headed to the hamburger store for some good home cookin fixins. their fried green tomatoes are to die for. after food coma set in, we headed back to marshall and hung out with the gang and some bikers that had come in from alabama. (something else happened, but i am waiting until the end of this blog entry to pop the big surprise).

we finally made it to ashley mountain about 3:00 and hung out until about 6 when we left to head back home. i desperately wish we could have stayed longer. this place has one of the most gorgeous views i have ever seen in my life. granted i haven't been to a lot of places outside of my comfort zone, but i have been to many many parts of texas, and i must say this has to be one of the best spots. truly a gem. the camera really couldn't capture the breathtaking beauty of ashley mountain overlooking lake o' the pines.

so, with all of that said and my little picture tour, that was my weekend in a nutshell.

i did bring home quite a present from marshall. and i am NOT in the least bit or ever have been a dog person, but i instantly fell in love at first site. i'm truly in for it now.

meet "marshall".

George Carlin's New Rules for 2008

i got this in email form on june 8th. though i would post it here in honor of mr. carlin.

GEORGE CARLIN'S NEW RULES FOR 2008

New Rule: No more gift registries. You know, it used to be just for weddings. Now it's for babies and new homes and graduations from rehab. Picking out the stuff you want and having other people buy it for you isn't gift giving, it's the white people version of looting.

New Rule: Stop giving me that pop-up ad for classmates.com! There's a reason you don't talk to people for 25 years. Because you don't particularly like them! Besides, I already know what the captain of the football team is doing these days --- mowing my lawn.

New Rule: Don't eat anything that's served to you out a window unless you're a seagull. People are acting all shocked that a human finger was found in a bowl of Wendy's chili. Hey, it cost less than a dollar. What did you expect it to contain? Lobster?

New Rule: Stop saying that teenage boys who have sex with their hot, blonde teachers are permanently damaged. I have a better description for these kids: 'Lucky bastards.'

New Rule: Ladies, leave your eyebrows alone. Here's how much men care about your eyebrows: Do you have two of them? Good, we're done.

New Rule:There's no such thing as flavored water. There's a whole aisle of this crap at the supermarket, water, but, without that watery taste. Sorry, but flavored water is called a soft drink. You want flavored water? Pour some scotch over ice and let it melt. That's your flavored water.

New Rule: The more complicated the Starbucks order, the bigger the asshole. If you walk into a Starbucks and order a 'decaf grandee, half-soy, half-low fat, iced vanilla, double-shot, gingerbread cappuccino, extra dry, light ice, with one Sweet-n'-Low, and One NutraSweet,' ooooh, you're a huge asshole.

New Rule: I'm not the cashier! By the time I look up from sliding my card, entering My PIN number, pressing 'Enter,' verifying the amount, deciding, no, I don't want Cash back, and pressing 'Enter' again, the kid who is supposed to be ringing me up is standing there eating my Mars Bar.

New Rule: Just because your tattoo has Chinese characters in it doesn't make you Spiritual. It's right above the crack of your ass. And it translates to 'beef with broccoli.' The last time you did anything spiritual, you were praying to God you weren't pregnant. You're not spiritual. You're just high.

New Rule: If you're going to insist on making movies based on crappy old television shows, then you have to give everyone in the Cineplex a remote so we can see what's playing on the other screens. Let's remember the reason something was a television show in the first place is that the idea wasn't good enough to be a movie.

New Rule: And this one is long overdue: No more bathroom attendants. After I zip up, some guy is offering me a towel and a mint like I just had sex with George Michael. I can't even tell If he's supposed to be there, or just some freak with a fetish. I don't want to be on your webcam, Dude. I just want to wash my hands.

New Rule: When I ask how old your toddler is, I don't need to hear '27 months.' 'He's two' will do just fine. He's not a cheese. And I didn't really care in the first place.

New Rule: If you ever hope to be a credible adult and want a job that pays better than Minimum wage, then for God's sake don't pierce or tattoo every available piece of flesh. If so, then plan your future around saying, 'Do you want fries with that?

1-800-Thanks-Al

my friend al makes me laugh. we've known each other wayyyyyyyyyy too long.

the beginning of the convo is left off to protect the innocent.


Al says: anywho enough of todays lesson
Al says: back to enjoying the day
I say: todays lesson according to al
I say: you may leave questions or comments at 1-800-thanks al
I say: thank you we'll be here all week
Al says: 1-800-fuck-off
I say: LMAO
Al says: you get a dialtone
I say: LOLOLOLOL
Al says: I do not discrimate I hate everybody

I Am The Walrus

from one of the greatest movies ever made. :)


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also....R.I.P. George Carlin. we've lost a HILARIOUS comedian. he was only 6 months older than my father.

Flashback Friday : Volume 31

been a while since i've done a flashback, so i thought i would provide my lovely readers with one today.

i heard this on the way to work, so i decided to post it.

not to mention, it was the theme song of one of my favorite tv shows. hehehe

enjoy.

Wandering Eyes

i know we all go through our phases, but i haven't felt like blogging lately. i've been forced to keep some aspects of my life private due to the wandering eyes of outside parties. that has put a real damper on the blogging and also on my spirit. i am crushed that i have been put into this situation as of late....but this too shall pass.

obsession with negativity is the worst way a person can live. sadly, apparently a lot more of the population i am starting to see live in this sense. it's very depressing to me. it's even more depressing that i can not post a blog either on this site or on my myspace without causing a major stink or without someone thinking it's about them when it's not. talk about a guilty conscious.

anyway.

i want to apologize for being 1) MIA and 2) some of the negativity that has gone on around here and on my myspace. it's killing my soul and i've got to get away from it for a while. you try so hard to stay away from it all, but when it's a constant struggle, it tends to suck you in with it...like it's done me. i'm still on the outskirts, but the fact that i have even let it GET to me, kills me. after all, that's what those people get off on is getting to you and effecting you. well...enough. no more. i'm done. finito.

thanks to my few readers out here who help lift my spirits and who leave me beautiful comments - this doesn't go unnoticed. you are all gems and i want to thank you for your inspirations. hopefully this phase will pass by quickly and things will get back to normal.

lots of loves.

so i will leave with this funny little ditty that i find to be very appropriate for all the activity as of late.

"I'm Normal, Please Date Me" ~ Charlotte Martin

I don't think I like rejection of my little girl affections it's not dope

I've been crawling on the walls just hoping you will call while I've got hair and teeth

It's not that I don't have a life

Maybe it's sad I'm sort of glad that I'm

I'm normal please date me

I won't call you half as much as you call me

I'm normal please date me

I have only stalked a couple guys but they were not about surprises

Don't run away cause baby I'm your dream

I have got a lot of hobbies some of which include phone calls that hang up

Quick- click

I was somewhat immature you won't believe how getting dumped makes

Girls grow up

All girls that say they don't obsess are full of shit and such a mess but

I'm normal please date me

I won't call you half as much as you call me

I'm normal please date me

I have only stalked a couple guys but they were not about surprises

Don't run away cause baby I'm your...

There is no restraining order that will separate our love that's ever true

Even if I can't convince you my probation officer is kind of cute

I'm normal please date me

I won't call you half as much as you call me

I'm normal please date me

I have only stalked a couple guys but they were not about surprises

Don't runaway cause baby I'm your dream

Switchfoot - "Meant to Live"

i don't know anything about this band, but i heard this song the other day and it reminded me of the old alternative "grunge" music from back in the day. i dig it. no idea if i would like any of their other stuff, but i really like this song a lot.

Movies - Reviews by Butterfly

as i mentioned in my post yesterday, i have been seeing a lot of movies lately.

the one of most significant importance i suppose would be indiana jones and the kingdom of the crystal skull. D-U-D-E. absolutely fantastic. of course there were some way beyond cheesy parts in the film - even for an indiana jones flick, but overall i absolutely loved it. i couldn't believe that was cate blanchett - i knew she looked familiar, but i didn't even know it was her until 1/2 way through the movie when a lightbulb went off in my head. shia labeouf sure is making a name for himself, isn't he? i can't believe how big he has gotten in the last few years. i like the kid - the ladybug used to watch him on even stevens on the disney channel a couple of years ago. i finally saw holes about a year ago - that was another excellent movie in itself. anyway....point is....the kids a good actor and he's definitely starting to make it big.

i'm definitely not a huge fan of going to the movies, so i rarely make that an event. the rest were all in dvd form:

beowulf. ugh. i know i will make some of you frown out there - especially some of the fellas, but i hated this movie. i swore i would never see it as i had heard about it and the violence. well natorchen made me watch it. *curse him* the effects and cinematography were very cool and the actors they had in the film were grand as well...but i knew i would hate this movie. it was too violent and simply gross. that's all i will say to that one.

underworld: evolution. this was bad-ass. not to mention i have a crush on kate beckinsale (only in this movie - not so much all the time) and definitely scott speedman, so the eye candy was quite good. i love movies about vampires and mythological characters. i loved the first one. wasn't too sure that this one would be as good, but i thought it was actually better than the first one.

3:10 to yuma. brilliant. i am not a HUGE fan of the western movie genre, but there are definitely a few that i rank up there really high.

black snake moan. i had never even heard of this film and stumbled across is pretty much on accident a couple of weeks ago. i am not a huge christina ricci fan by any means, but i think she played her part well in this movie. even ol' "timbo" had some great acting skills. i definitely recommend this one.

crossroads. oldy but goody. i remember hearing of this movie way back in the day, but i never actually saw it. what an amazing flick. seriously! i was so impressed with this movie. if you like the blues, you must see this one!

walk hard. don't. watch. this. movie. an hour and a half of your life will be forever gone and you will regret it. this was recommended to me and LL by a very close friend of ours who stated he laughed so hard in this movie that he had to pause it several times before he could move on. uh. wow. i think we forced ourselves to make it through 3/4 of the movie before we turned it off. do yourself a favor, don't' even think about it. if you already have. i'm sorry.

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i think that's about it. it seems like i'm forgetting one or two, but i can't think of them at the moment. 2 movies coming up that i will definitely go to the movie theaters for are:

HULK. dude. edward norton. tim roth. NEED I SAY MORE????

X-FILES : I WANT TO BELIEVE - JULY 25TH. i'm there. opening night.

Emptiness

honestly, i'm not quite sure why i am here. it's been 6 days since i have posted and i logged in a moment ago thinking i wanted to say something, but i'm completely at a loss. so please don't mind the babble that is about to surface from me noggin.

after what has become an almost daily correspondence with a dear internet friend of mine, i mentioned that i was in an odd place....nothing bad...just odd. something that i could not even put into words. he wrote me back with : "Odd, huh . . . if you can’t describe it directly . . . can you indirectly? . . . As in how it is impacting your experience of day-to-day life?"

after reading this over and over again about 5 different times trying to get the gears in my brain to turn, i hit the reply button, carefully placed my fingers in the appropriate position on the keys of my keyboard...and just sat there. nothing came out. i was at a loss. instead of replying back with possibly the most ignorant and dumbest response of "uh, i dunno", i apparently have decided to embarrass myself in front of more than just one person and make a complete arse of myself right here. how's that for no shame?

absolutely nothing of major significance is going on with me right now. so when i say odd...i mean odd as in the absence of something....of anything. i have a sense of emptiness right now. and not in a bad way - it's hard to describe. normally when one feels empty, it's definitely a bit of a negative thing. with me it's not good, but i don't feel bad or negative. like my inner soul and my depth has been taking a vacation for a few weeks. i haven't analyzed anything in my life. any relationship or any situation i have put myself in. i've just gone with it - been in the moment. (and please don't take this as going on some sort of a drug or sex binge as i'm not insinuating that sort of thing by any means) i have taken a leave of absence of my life as it is. taken a step back just to get out of the monotony. i know that sounds bizarre, but follow me here for a moment. i've been eating whatever i have felt like eating. i haven't played soccer in 3 weeks...because i just haven't felt like it. i haven't been reading. i have been watching television and shows that have no significance in my life, but none-the-less have been entertaining. i've been watching MANY movies, which is odd for me - i'm not a huge movie watcher. don't get me wrong, i love movies, but there are also many movies that come and go that i never see. i haven't cleaned my house in a couple of weeks or made any sort of effort in doing so. i haven't read ANY politics or watched any local or wordly news for that matter.

i've been lazy. lazy with a capital L.

so after reading that you are probably thinking to yourself, wow, she's a lazy son-of-a-bitch isn't she - how can that be considered a good thing? i am not considering it a good thing...just not a bad thing. i woke up at 3:30 this morning with a sense that i was ready to move out of this emptiness i've been experiencing. i obviously needed to experience it, but it's time to get back into what's really important to me and what makes my life wonderful to me.

i got up at 6:30 this morning and RAN. i ran for 30 minutes with nothing but my thoughts and my feet gripping the concrete. there's something about running...the endorphines....the absolute freedom....just you and your body working together. time to return to my life. time for meaning again. and 3 weeks of this emptiness...gone. vanished. experienced & now moving along. back to soccer, back to watching what i ingest into my body, back to written word, back to my spiritual quest. back to ME again.

welp

looks like yo mama obama finally nabbed the nomination. about friggin time. now i guess we will see if ol' hill-billary will be vp? honestly i've taken almost a complete hiatus from following any sort of politics lately. it's been too damaging to my soul...but i'm sure i will start to get back into it and pay more attention when it gets closer to election time. other things on my mind and in my life are far more important than trying to wade through our corrupted government and make sense of things. some days i just wish the aliens will go ahead and begin their quest for taking us over. our country might be a better place. :-p

all kidding aside....sorry i've been a bit MIA from here lately as i probably will continue to be for a bit. not much to say to be completely honest and i have some personal things going on in my life that i'm trying to sort through without being too public about it. nothing BAD by any means...just a lot of pondering. sometimes i wish i could go back to being a kid again when the complications of adult relationships are non-existant. agh.

i'm working on my website. it's up, but i still have a lot to do to it....if you'd like to check it out....here it is : http://www.sunshinebutterflycreations.com/

i made 2 new necklaces over the weekend and have revamped my etsy account. if you'd like to check that out, you can find the link over in the right sidebar.

anyhoooooooo, that's all i have for now.