i've read a few blogs and a lot of people's comments on the death of heath ledger. many were filled with compassion, but the majority were filled with "who the fuck cares" and "fucking druggy" and "he's a dumb-fuck who deserved to die because he chose that lifestyle...blah blah blah blah blah".
ok. *deep breath*
firstly, although i say that i really don't care about celebrity lifestyle, i have this inner demon inside of me that picks up people magazine more often than i should. honestly, as much as us as human beings would like to admit that we couldn't care less, the truth is that we do. and for those of you reading this shaking your head disagreeing with me, stop kidding yourselves. we do have a curiosity and an opinion. i wish i could say that i could care less about the falling youth celebs such as brittany spears, lindsay lohan, etc. but the truth is i do. i see them and my heart goes out to them because they have MAJOR problems and they need major help. first step in my opinion, GET THE FUCK OUT OF THE SPOTLIGHT and drop off the face of the earth for a few years until you can get your lives together. simple as that.
and yes, sometimes i have that feeling of...well they chose this life and they chose to be famous, so they have to deal with that, so fuck em. but in all honesty, i don't feel that way because i have human compassion. just because someone is famous or "chose" to be famous and in the spotlight doesn't mean they aren't another person just like you and me. and the simple fact is that they are. they have obstacles and stuggles that we, as an average "unfamous" person, do not face. and we can't BEGIN to understand that. as much as we like to judge it, we DON'T understand it.
i liked - rephrase that - i like heath ledger a lot. despite the fact that he was terribly easy on the eyes, as most people would agree with me...even you straight fellas out there, you definitely have to agree he was a handsome man. i found him to be a very talented actor and a very diverse actor. i sort of saw him as a young tom hanks - and possibly moving into that stature by the time he was tom's age. heath was not the type of person to display or flaunt himself to the media or the public. despite his popularity and his "famousness", he appeared to stay grounded and tried to keep out of the mainstream spotlight. he dated a very spotlighted actress for many years - naomi watts and i think because of that, he was in the media a bit more. when he got together with michelle williams and became a father, he seemed to fall off the tabloids' radars. because he CHOSE to step away from it. in all the interviews i have heard with him, he appears to be very intellectual, soft-spoken and level-headed.
so when i saw this news hit the page of msn in bold red, i was in shock. when i heard people's horrid opinions and things coming out of their mouths, i chose to stay quiet. because i didn't want to presume anything. my heart immediately went out to his 2 year old daughter and his ex-wife who are now going to have to go through this life without him being a part of it. whether you are famous or not, or a druggy or not, that is SAD. have some fucking compassion people. quit judging others when you have NO idea. you have no idea what their life was like...you have no idea the struggles they faced... you have no idea WHY. so now his autopsy comes back as inconclusive. which means obviously he wasn't flying high on any major drugs. which means that it probably wasn't murder. which means it PROBABLY was some sort of accident. which means....MAYBE he took a few sleeping pills and his body reacted terribly and he died. we don't know.
so i'm going to continue to stay quiet (haha - that's funny isn't it) and have some compassion for his family and his friends and the people who were closest to him because they just lost an incredible person.
rest in peace, mate.