Mr. Wit & Mr. Shaman

i know i have quite a few blogs in my blogroll to the right...some i visit regularly or on a daily basis and some, not as much.

there are 2 blogs that even if i'm busy i make it a point to check them out in the morning and late afternoon. these are two of the greatest guys in the blogworld that i know of. they both brighten my every workday. i am happy to call them my best blogger buddies. :)

Objectivity and Observation

and

Oceanshaman

Turning into a Sweettart

over the last 2 weeks, i have developed a SERIOUS sweettart addiction.


i need an intervention.



fo rizzle.

6 Months

today marks the anniversary of our first date - 6 months ago.

i wrote this a few days ago and sent it to my horizon....

i wanted to tell you a story about this amazing person that i know in my life this morning.

i was bored one day - the exact day i can't recall - looking through friends of friends of friends - clicking multiple amounts of times through my myspace account - nothing else to do...just passing the time. i came across this page that caught my eye and made me catch my breath. his profile name said "horizon" and he was beautiful. i read about him and looked through his pictures - the one picture he had of himself and several of his gorgeous children. i was instantly attracted to this person...even though it was only through a computer screen, something about this person drew me in. his interests, his music taste, his overall aura. i was nervous about contacting him, but i took a deep breath and did it. i was unsure if he would acknowledge my email. if he would take the time to write me back or to even see me. or would he just see the email and shrug and move along. to my surprise, he emailed me back. a lovely email as i recall. i was so ecstatic. we wrote long, in depth emails back and forth to each other...with each new email, i was drawn closer to him. i felt butterflies in my stomach every time i got an email from him. we decided to meet. i suggested driving out to fort worth to meet him, he insisted on coming to dallas to meet me. i gave in to the suggestion.

the exact day was saturday, march 24, 2007. we had exchanged numbers and he called me that morning to go over details of our first meeting. the instant i heard his voice, i melted. he had such a strong, sexy, captivating voice. i was so nervous. we decided to meet at the cosmic cafe. i gave him the address...he got directions and we were set to meet. i got there a little before he did. as i was sitting in my car, i kept looking in the rearview mirror..."do i look ok?" "what is he going to think of me?" "god, i'm so nervous?!?!?!?" he finally pulled up in his silver sports car...i got out of the car and met him as he was getting out. OH. MY. GOD. nothing but beauty stood before me. his eyes were alluring, his skin - a soft caramel, nice button-down white shirt, jeans and brown sandals. WOW. and that smile. i felt like i was going to pass out. i was so nervous, but i remember him commenting on how beautiful he thought i was and how he loved how tall i was. i laughed....and grew a little red in the cheeks. we sat and had lovely conversation....he made me feel like spaghetti the entire time. he would look at me with those eyes....almost as if he was looking inside me...inside my soul. normally that would scare the crap out of me....but this felt....natural. we enjoyed the time we had and finally decided to go get some dinner. we drove around in my car and decided that good eats would be a nice place to go. dinner was absolutely lovely - both having the same thing - salmon. the conversation was flowing and i felt myself getting more drawn into him with each new glance. he made me feel like i was the most beautiful woman in the world. after dinner, we had a little more time to spare before he had to meet some friends for a night at the museum that night, so we drove around and found a local park. as we walked, i felt him next to me....the intensity and the warmth of his presence was almost overwhelming...so overwhelming that i got lost in it and almost decided to get run over by a turning car on the road. luckily he was there to save me. we walked back to the car, drove back to cosmic cafe and shared a soft, amazing kiss. i will never forget that kiss. i did not want our day to end. we parted ways for the evening. all i could think was that i didn't want it to end. i knew something good was going to happen with this person. i could feel it.

we emailed all week and decided the following weekend to have a sleep over with all the kids. i was afraid it was moving too fast, but he told me you can't put a time stamp on everything. besides, we wanted more of each other. we could not wait.

it was raining that night - badly i remember. when they got over to the house, everyone was drinched...especially horizon as he had to keep going back out to the car. it was monsoon outside. the kids instantly hit it off and horizon and i instantly were consumed by each other...again. tonight, we could make love and it would be so sweet. so amazing. and it was. how could i have known then that i would fall deeply in love with this person and want to spend the rest of my life with him? but i just knew.

things started happening rapidly, but each new thing beautiful in it's own right.

it's now 6 months later and i have never been more happy in my life. more sure of a love in my life. we've already been through a lot together....and will continue to do so, but i welcome it all with open arms. the good times, the struggles, the many trials and tribulations of a relationship. and most importantly...the love. i am ready.

on monday, september 24, 2007, we will have been together 6 months. we came close to a breakup about midway through to this point, but have stuck it out and are flourishing in our love. our relationship is a learning process and we've hit a few bumps in the road, but mild speedbumps is all they are. i love this man genuinely and more strongly than i have ever loved another before. i did not think this kind of love was possible until i met him. i know it's only 6 months and then 1 year...then yearly anniversaries....regardless of the time, i am constantly reminded of the blessing that was brought into my life the day i met horizon. and the most beautiful and amazing children i am proud to have in my life.

i am the happiest and luckiest woman on this earth.

Flashback Friday : Volume 3

a-hey-a-ma-ma-ma



Dream Academy - "Life in a Northern Town"

MIA

i'm still here, just buried under this HUGE PILE OF WORK. stay tuned.

Just when you think you've seen it all.....

..... i truly have no words.

Nebraska state senator sues God

My own private ACL fest

alright, since i am a weeeeeeeeeeeee bit depressed that i wasn't able to join some of my friends at the austin city limits festival this year in austin, i'm going to be looking at the online schedule at random moments throughout today and the rest of the weekend and imagine myself being there having the time of my life with my buds. outdoor music festivals feed my soul like nothing else. i've been to acl fest 3 years in the past. due to financial stresses, i haven't been able to go the last 2 years. :( that makes butterfly a very unhappy butterfly. but alas, it is what it is, so i will create my own. the following list will consist of my virtual weekend at acl: schedule can be found here.

friday:

12:40-1:20 adam hood
2:30-3:30 bela fleck and the flecktones (although this was a hard decision between them and pete yorn)
4:30-5:30 this is a tough one...i would probably have to split this one in half for crowded house and joss stone
5:15-6:00 jj grey & mofro
6:30-7:30 spoon
7:45-8:15 i would have to check out some of reverend horton heat
8:15-8:45 the killers
8:45-10:00 bjork

saturday:

4:00-4:30 st. vincent
4:30-5:00 blue october
5:00-5:30 stephen marley
6:30-7:30 damien rice
8:15-8:45 arcade fire
8:45-10:00 muse

sunday:

12:30-1:30 yo la tengo
2:30-3:15 ben kweller
3:15-3:30 ziggy marley on the kiddie stage!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3:30-4:30 common
5:30-6:30 amos lee (although i would have liked to see regina spektor - i am WAY too big an amos lee fan to miss any of his set)
6:30-7:45 wilco
7:45-8:30 the decemberists
8:30-10:00 bob dylan

and of course if i was ACTUALLY going, i would have studied up on a few of the more unknown bands and checked them out in between times as i could fit them in.

so there we have it folks...my virtual weekend at acl. i hope you enjoy it as much as i will. :)

Flashback Friday : Volume 2

today i am giving you a sweet little number by the trashcan sinatras , a scottish band that formed in 1987. they never became too popular here in the states, but are still together and still making lovely music.

(sorry about the vid quality - it IS circa 1991)

The TrashCan Sinatras : "Obscurity Knocks"

Gleeful

i am so utterly, madly, ecstatically, happily, absurdly, crazily, wildly, extremely.....

IN. LOVE.

Ride

You are everything I wanted

The scars of all I’ll ever know

If I told you you were right

Would you take my hand tonight?

If I told you the reasons why

Would you leave your life and ride?

And ride…

You saw all my pieces broken

This darkness that I could never show

If I told you you were right

Would you take my hand tonight?

If I told you the reasons why

Would you leave your life and ride?

And ride…

ARGH

you know, i have been so busy today, but i have gotten a couple of emails on the subject and everytime i open up msn, i keep seeing how "britney bombed big time".

can we just leave the poor girl alone? usually i could care less and i have the attitude that these rich, bratty celebrities keep getting themselves into these messes and expect to get free rides, etc., but i kind of feel sorry for britney. she has so many deep rooted issues and on top of it has 2 toddler boys that she needs to attend to and give her all to. i hope that she will be able to get help for her problems and become the best mama she can be....who cares about her stardom or her comeback. she needs to focus less on that and focus on getting her life together - no matter how long it takes. god knows she has enough money to take a much needed extended vacation from the public eye - for years...which she should do in my opinion.

Flashback Friday : Intro : Volume 1

i've decided to start a little segment on my blog entitled "FLASHBACK FRIDAY". here i will be posting a video or two of a song(s) that takes me back (and hopefully some for you as well).

i'm 31. which puts me right in the middle of the beginning of the alternative/new wave movement. i was in jr. high and high school. and i was your typical "new waver". i listened to The Edge back when it was 94.5 on the dial and back when it was what i considered "cool" and "fresh". now it just sucks (sorry for those of you out there that possibly listen to that crap, but hey i'm old school). atleast now they have a segment on sunday mornings from 8-10 with josh (who has been there since the beginning and has done "The Adventure Club" from day one - he actually has a nice diverse music taste - one i can relate to) called "old school edge". sad that the only time i can hear good music that i used to listen to back in the day is for 2 hours on an early sunday morning when i would much rather be sleeping. what can ya do?

anyway....i could go on about all of this for hours, and my "FLASHBACK FRIDAY"'s will not be like this everytime i promise. just wanted to give a bit of premise behind my madness.

these songs/videos will more than likely not consist of the 80's "cheese" as i like to call it. (don't get me wrong - i was all about the 80's cheese as well), but i'm talking about the 80's/early 90's alternative/new wave intro/brit pop movement.

with that said, i have 2 lovely gems today i would like to share with ya'll (yes, i'm from texas, hush).

1. first we will start off with a little known band called the bodeans. this band was definitely not mainstream, but a certain tv show named party of five gave them a shine in the spotlight. yes, folks, this is where your sexy character from lost made his big break. as the oldest brother charlie salinger. ah, how i adored that show...but dammit i'm diverting away from my point here.

without further adu, i give you the bodeans - "closer to free"

(and wouldn't you know it, there's a minimal selection of youtube videos for this song, so strangely enough someone meshed the song with harry potter: 3. hmmmm - weird, but oh well)




2. we have a fairly well known band, UB40, with a fairly unknown song of theirs called "higher ground". i love the vibe of this song...it just grooves so well.

enjoy!

Faerie Tale Theatre

oh my gosh - i just got jerked back into childhood. i used to sit and watch these with my dad ALL the time.

http://www.metafilter.com/64450/Faerie-Tale-Theatre

i think i'm going to go home tonight and watch some of these on youtube. :)

Robert Randolph

i have always dug robert randolph. i have heard this song several times now over the past couple of weeks - it's just awesome.

Ron Paul

in my work boredom yesterday and again today (ugh! - i know i should enjoy the break but still), i'm REALLY starting to *like* this guy. i never thought i would say that about a republican, but he's not your average run of the mill right wing...he's libertarian which i seem to move towards as well. i really really like his viewpoint on giving the state more authority instead of the federal govt running everything in our lives. i don't agree with some of his conservative views, but maybe this is truly what we need and my dad says this all the time...we need conservative at the federal level and more liberal at the state level. i am starting to believe this more and more...and although conservative, ron paul is a firm believer in more power and more decisions state-wise.

*like* = as much as you could *like* a freakin politician. and he's from texas...so hey. although we've seen what the last fuck-face from texas has done. but we aren't all bad down here :)

"I want to be president mainly for what I don't want to do: I don't want to run your life, I don't want to run the economy and I don't want to police the world." -Ron Paul

that caught my attention right there. hopefully it's not just a lure though. dammit - why can't they just put oprah or montel williams in as president? they would both do a damn good job being such huge humanitarians. and what's even sadder is that i would feel more comfortable having our country run by a talk show host. ugh. i'm moving out of the country. i'm feeling ill.

Selectsmart.com results

interesting....

Thank you for visiting this http://selectsmart.com/ Selector. For more information on this selector and your results, go to http://selectsmart.com/president/2008/comparethem.html.

2008 President Selector Rankings:

1. Theoretical Ideal Candidate (100 %)
2. Barack Obama (76 %)
3. Christopher Dodd (73 %)
4. Al Gore (not announced) (69 %)
5. Alan Augustson (campaign suspended) (69 %)
6. Dennis Kucinich (68 %)
7. Wesley Clark (not announced) (65 %)
8. John Edwards (64 %)
9. Mike Gravel (61 %)
10. Joseph Biden (60 %)
11. Ron Paul (60 %)
12. Hillary Clinton (60 %)
13. Michael Bloomberg (not announced) (52 %)
14. Kent McManigal (campaign suspended) (50 %)
15. Bill Richardson (47 %)
16. Elaine Brown (40 %)
17. Rudolph Giuliani (35 %)
18. Chuck Hagel (not announced) (33 %)
19. John McCain (31 %)
20. Tommy Thompson (withdrawn) (27 %)
21. Newt Gingrich (not announced) (27 %)
22. Sam Brownback (25 %)
23. Mike Huckabee (25 %)
24. Fred Thompson (not announced) (24 %)
25. Mitt Romney (22 %)
26. Duncan Hunter (19 %)
27. Tom Tancredo (17 %)
28. Jim Gilmore (withdrawn) (16 %)

I labored on Labor Day weekend

that should be sacrelig. however, i did get a lot of things done that i had been procrastinating about.

went through my bookcase and now have a huge brown paper bag full of books to take up to half price books to try and sell. cleaned my entire house, went through old clothes of mine and The Ladybug's and ended up with 5 sacks full for goodwill - dropped all that off. washed my car, cleaned out my car, did laundry and somehow found time to go see Horizon saturday and sunday nights. whew.

i do feel better that i got all that done, but also a bit upset that i didn't really relax at all or hang out with other friends like i had hoped to. ah well. c'est la vie.

my commute to and from work on weeks i have The Ladybug is becoming unbearable. it took me 2 hours from the time i left my house, dropped her off and got into work this morning. nothing i can do about it this school year, but next year, something's gotta give. this city sucks traffic-wise and the suburbs surrounding that i have to drive through. lots of meditation and relaxation exercises are going to be at use for me.

september 24th marks me and Horizon's 6 month anniversary. we are trying to plan something on a weekend for just the two of us to go out of town and spend the weekend doing nothing but revelling in each other's company. which will be nice because we usually have all the kiddos at any given time so it's hard for us to have enough time just to bask in each other's love alone.

i am committing myself to doing research on all the presidential candidates. i did a little bit yesterday. i gotta say out of all of them i read about yesterday, mike gravel appealed to me most. of course that is subject to change at any moment because frankly, all politicians suck no matter which way you look at it. i also signed up for the green party so i can get more involved now and get their newsletter.

bah...today is a slow day at work, so i'll be doing a lot of surfing today.

Finally

i think in all the years he has been in office, this is the VERY first thing he has done right....seriously. (and yes, i am a little excited because it effects me personally since i underwrite government mortgage loans....)

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/20524454/

10 Years

i can't believe it's been 10 years. i remember it like it was yesterday. you are dearly missed, princess of the people. your legacy lives on....

"I'm goin back to Cali....I DON'T THINK SO!"

agh. i'm reviewing an appraisal right now in west sacramento, ca - a run down shack as it appears to me 2 bed/1 bath, 1028 sq ft. appraised for $275,000. the exact same house here in texas would appraise roughly around $50-75k depending on what city you were in. and for $275k, you can have one hellova nice house.

that's just completely ridiculous. i could never allow myself to live in california.

Map of Bones

i started this book several months ago...even before i started HP:7. of course i put it down to read HP, but now have picked it back up. for some reason it's been an excrutiatingly slow read. perhaps i just wasn't in the mood. i'm a huge sucker for books such as these...dan brown's novels, etc....especially now - my brain is so intrigued by historical events in the biblical sense. i hardly know anything at all, but the more i read about, the more i want to research.

i just realized i have no point to this post, so please excuse my randomness. i have since gotten back into the book and i am FINALLY at a point that it's really getting suspenseful and to the point that i can hardly put it down now. i am assuming i will be finishing it by the end of the long weekend and choosing from my stack of books that i haven't yet delved into for something new.

The Davish One asked me the other night if i had read the alchemist yet. i have not, but it has been crossing my mind several times over the past couple of months...and kind of ironic that he brought it up the other night. i might need to make a trip to half price books this weekend to see if i can find it. i love bookstores too. there's nothing like getting lost in them.

by the way, if any of you readers out there have any suggestions of any books along these lines, i am always open to them. i love recommendations!

Hump day Amos Lee style

so i was out with some friends last night and The Davish One proceeds to tell me that ADMUSICA sent him a text the other morning that said "good morning, vietnamaste". i laughed for 15 minutes. pure genius that one.

i'm in an amos lee kind of mood today...enjoy.

RJD2 - "THE GENTLE RAIN" feat. ASTRUD GILBERTO

i found this song a couple of years ago and absolutely fell in love with it. i was thinking of it this morning on the way to work. the only video i could find is connected with a trailer to "the closer" (which was a great movie in itself). after watching it...it does mesh pretty well. enjoy the song....

Divine Feminine Force

Divine Feminine Force
Shakti

The divine feminine goes by many names in many
spiritual traditions, but at the heart of nearly all of
these, Shakti can found. Hinduism specifically
recognized the dynamic and potent feminine power
that exists in all beings and deified it in the form of
a goddess. Shakti, however, is not merely a single
deity, playing a single role in the lives of
humankind. Rather, she represents the
fundamental creative force that is the root of all
creation in the universe. In art, Shakti has taken
on the outward appearance of many goddesses,
but her anthropomorphized form is far less
significant than the essential form she takes within
each of us. Shakti's presence in our lives can be
experienced in a deep and personal way, but we
must first reach out to her so that we can draw
upon the vital animating energy that is her gift to
us.

There is no one motive that drives all beings to
expend effort in the act of creation, which is
precisely why Shakti can be the embodiment of
power that is both constructive and destructive.
Giving substance to inspiration helps to restore
balance—sometimes by breaking matter or ideas
down into their base components and sometimes
by building them up into an object never before
seen in the world. Shakti energy is intense yet
multifaceted. It is simultaneously subtly
illuminating and darkly fierce. There is a
temptation among those touching the Shakti
within themselves to ignore those elements of this
powerful force that do not suit them. But to
disregard this energy is to reject the fact that the
elements of existence that are the most
transformative and life-affirming are often those
that are intensely challenging. If our aim is to
become consciously balanced, we must accept
the Shakti within as a unified whole rather than an
amalgamation of isolated qualities.

You have likely felt Shakti's touch in your soul,
even if you could not give the resultant feeling a
name. When the goddess turns her gaze toward
you, she recognizes the potential you embody,
and her gift to you is the inspiration that allows
you to realize that potential. Shakti exists in all
thought, feeling, and matter, which means that
you need only act upon your creative impulses to
connect with the feminine power that has been a
part of you since the universe's conception.

Everybody needs a little JBT in their life